Kelvin Seow - A Piece of My World

Changes of Me @ Ling Lee

2011-03-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

Up until today, my heart was filled with fear of the changes to come. What kind of person do I want to be? What means the most to me? How do I want my life to be? How will I be truly happy? I went for a walk yesterday, and I was at peace. The sky was so blue, the wind so gentle~ My mind was empty, my heart was calm. I’ve made my decision, my dreams are clear, and from this moment on, I’m chasing them.

To my family,
Ah Lung, you’re my only brother, my life will be with a lot less smiles and laughter without you. Mii, I can’t count all the arguments and disagreements we have had, but I know you only mean well for me. Pa, I know you’ve always tried to protect me from the world and mistakes. All you’ve done means much to me, now...it’s time to let me walk through life, fall, and make my own mistakes. Knowing all of you will be there for me when I get up again is more than enough.

To my friends who care for me, and I for them,
I remember the experiences I shared with each of you, and they will forever be a part of me. Some of you have gone away, for different reasons. Near or far, I hope we can continue to count on each other. Everyone’s going through different things right now, but I’ll always be there to help if anyone needs me. Please wait patiently for my 1st OR 2nd pay, I’ll belanja you guys one by one :)

To the one I love,
You know me best, because I share my heart with you. The moments with you...are always my happiest. You’ve done as much as you can for me, your love helps me grow stronger. With you...I can be myself, I can be weak, I can show you my true heart and soul. Every word you’ve said to me, I listened and tried to understand.
Forgive me for all the things I’ve said and done that hurt you, forgive me for pushing you away. You deserve my trust & my faith. Doubting you, means I doubt myself. To make things better, I know I have to become more mature, positive, independent. I have to be myself & grow into the person I want to be.

To me,
Keep things simple~
Be brave and don’t be scared of changes, you can make them changes for the better~
Change, but always stay true to yourself~
Treat everyone you love as well as you can~
When you’re emotional, stop, take a deep breath, and keep calm~
Make your decisions for the right reasons, and after considering all the choices and consequences of those choices~
Be positive~
Love like you’ve never been hurt before~
Don’t settle for a safe life because you’re scared of trying & failing, Reach for your Dreams~
Experience everything that life has to offer~
Learn from your failures but, try everything FRESH like you’ve never failed before~
Most of all, don’t hold yourself back~
Live your life with no regrets, cause you only have one life~

Life Changed

2010-09-13T02:25:00.000+08:00

I was wondering in the cyber cafe looking for something to read or watch, and I realise that my blog have not been update for almost a year....

A lot of things have changed since a year ago. I drop out from Uni, I started to work, I experience a whole new world by myself. I met people, I like someone, I done things I never done before and I almost killed myself with depression again.

Now, my life is fill with a lot of things that I don't even know whether I should embrace it. I just put my faith in God and just take any opportunity that God will give me in my life. Grab it as soon as I see it. Listen closely to His Voice, and practice and walk with the Word.

Still, sometimes, I think I'm avoiding God in a way. Not attending bible study, not reading the bible, not growing in faith and not preparing myself for Him in the heaven. A year have past, Kai Xin is back from Industrial Training. A lot of friends have been starting to pursue their dreams. People growing up and changed.

Still, sometimes, I still wonder on the past and things that have happen. What do I have now? I have enough money to survive, to pay my debts, to grab my dreams nearer to myself and learn about the model of a business. Financially able to support myself and others.

Still, sometimes, I think there's something missing in my life. God still there? Yes he is. He is always looking at me when I'm down and need some help. He is always giving me courage when I need to show my weakness to others. He is always there when I'm alone, reminding me about things that I shouldn't be doing and comforting me about my loneliness and depressive thoughts.

In the end, I realise that this one year that I have gone through, I'm glad to say that, I have receive a lot more than I deserve to get from God. He gave me a job, a place to stay, a group of friends that never give up on me, someone, and confidence that I have never had before. The confidence to stay alive, the joy to learn and the passion to teach and grow.

Even though late in the night, I still sense that the darkness is drawing me closer to them. The darkness that once took me away, and the darkness which brought the light to me. I'm still strong with God in me, though sometimes doubtful about it. Thank God for everything and every detail that you painted in my life. Thank you for lending me your son to me. I think I might need to find a way to return it back to you. Amen.

James 1:15

2009-10-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

An Illustration of James 1:15

Q. Could you please give me an illustration for this verse, James 1:15
NIV : Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.
Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.
I mean how do you explain this verse. I find it not easy though it seems easy.

A. James was talking about taking responsibility for our sins. He said we can’t accuse God of tempting us because He is neither tempted by evil nor does He tempt anyone else.
(James 1:13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: evil: or, evils )

In verse 14 he said we are enticed to sin because of our own evil desires, which cause lustful thoughts. When these thoughts are given consideration they become sin, which under the Law is punishable by death.

(James 1:15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death. )

To illustrate, say I’m walking down the street when I see a beautiful woman coming toward me. This woman is not my wife but I find her desirable to look at just the same. If I entertain even a momentary thought on what it might be like to become sexually involved with her, I’ve committed the sin of adultery which is punishable by death.

Can I blame God for making the woman so attractive, or for causing her to cross my path, or for making me a healthy man with human desires? No. I can only blame myself for entertaining such a thought about a woman I’m not married to.

This is one of the illustrations Jesus used in Matt. 5-6 to show us the need for a Savior, because it’s impossible for us always avoid doing thing like this. And the same is true of an angry thought, or an envious one, or an untruthful one.

James was making the point that we can’t blame God when we succumb to the temptations of this world. From other passages we know that Jesus died for all our sins so we won’t have to. (Col. 2:13-15) And even after we’re saved, when we take responsibility for our sins and confess them as such, God is just and faithful to forgive us and will purify us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9) so we won’t become estranged from Him.

9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Source GraceThroughFaith

Nightmare

2009-08-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time before I have a nightmare. This time, it is really frightening because it was real and related to something that I'm facing. It was about me and my parents. The nightmare freaks me out because this fear of mine have been a drawback for my confident and life in doing decisions. I only realise that it was so important and threatening to my thoughts that I would fear it happen again.
Fear of being rejected and not recognised by my parents. Fear of being the useless member of the family. Fear of everything from my parents. Dropping expectation of my community and my family. Those are stopping me from breaking down my barriers that is stopping me from open up myself to others and God. The real issues is not on the fear but me myself putting down my pride and barrier. I wouldn't say that the problems lies at my parents but rather, the problems lies on my confession of my sin and surrender and submit myself to God.
So what is the issue with surrendering myself to God. Denying myself and carrying our cross daily and follow Christ. IT is an issue for my christian living and also my growth in Christ. All this nightmare happen for a reason and I believe it has a purpose in my growth and maturity as a christian.
What's wrong with this surrendering and submitting myself to God gonna do with my nightmare?
Does it have to do with my decision that I gonna make for my studies and my addiction & idol & idleness?
I do think that I have the asnwer. The answer to my surrendering and submission to God. Obedience that I need to follow to GROW in Christ. I really pray that God and me will work out something and I not merely listen to it but follow it.

Putting Christ First
Matthew 6:33
Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.

2009-06-13T19:06:00.006+08:00

Courtesy of nakedpastor

What have I dropped???

Unity

2009-05-21T10:32:00.001+08:00

“May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
(Romans 15:5-6)

One heart and mouth is sometimes a struggle for me myself.

Listens and Won.

2009-05-11T13:56:00.001+08:00

"If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over.” (Matthew 18:15)

Understanding and listening, makes a difference.

In All Circumstances

2009-05-08T11:04:00.000+08:00

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

Give thanks in all circumstances is a tough decision. Not many people could do that. It was a challenge to a lot of people, and also to me. Looking at God's will for us in Christ, everything seems to be easy to go through, even if it is a tough circumstances. Thanks.

我愛豆腐 I Love To-Fu

2009-04-30T17:20:00.001+08:00

TOFU!!! the BEST food in the WORLD!

葉子 - 懷念阿桑 R.I.P.(The Rose 薔薇之戀電視片尾曲)

2009-04-30T14:52:00.001+08:00

RIP

伊能静靜靜的海洋 - 志雲飯局 <當初相識回憶如花>

2009-04-28T14:06:00.001+08:00

以下是志雲飯局的访谈:

Part1：怕不红曾打过量类固醇致失声

陈：欢迎你来香港!

伊：你好!

陈：你有好多称号，其中一个叫“美丽教主”。其实是你自己取的？还是人家给你的？

伊：其实是因为那时做美容节目，教人扮靓，那时传媒和粉丝就给了这个头衔我。

陈：你觉得自己美不美丽？

伊：ok的。（大笑）因为觉得自己身材和皮肤确实有保持，有很努力要变成一个很漂亮的女生，很认真的面对生活。我觉得这个态度是很重要的。

陈：你觉得你自己最美丽是哪部分？

伊：我的脑。你们看不到的。

陈：怎么个美丽法呢？

伊：我觉得一个人一定要认真思考和反省自己，这在人生里是很重要的。

陈：我知道你很喜欢写作，有自己的博客。你有没有朋友建议你不要再写自己喜欢看书和写作，说你做错了？说你很刻意去表达自己的内涵，

伊：看书不一定就证明有内涵的，我都看漫画、杂志啊，男人杂志我都看的。

陈：为什么呢？

伊：因为我对这个世界很好奇，是不是这样就代表是一个很有内涵的人呢？我觉得不是这样的。

陈：有没有劝过你呢？

伊：很多啊。

陈：有没有觉得你很假？

伊：但是这个世界你为了迁就别人，因为假意而做了另外一件假的事，你觉不觉得很蠢呢？为了一些自以为是的事。

陈：那“公主”的外号怎么给你的呢？

伊：那时候演《悲伤的茱莉》《落入凡间的精灵》，有很多公主打扮，那时粉丝就“公主”、“公主”的叫。我记得有一次我在高雄开演唱会，从台北开过去6小时的车程，到了那都没声音唱歌了，当时在台上对麦，都没有声音，当时就被人骂。下了台之后就在后台哭，后来坐大巴离开的时候，很多粉丝到巴士站，给我送中药，还对我说：“你别哭，你是我们的公主，我们很疼你的。”从那时开始粉丝就“公主”、“公主”的叫。

陈：说到你在高雄唱歌唱不出声，我以前曾经看过一些关于你的文章，说你打过很多类固醇的针，真的有这件事？

伊：恩，其实是有另外一个很有名的歌手介绍用的，他当时说“我介绍你一个地打针”，就是打这里的（指喉咙）。

陈：这么恐怖？

伊：是啊，那个针头有那么粗（用手比划），我打了以后就凉凉的，30分钟之后发声就像“天籁”一样。他就没告诉我说不要经常打。

陈：你多久打一次呢？

伊：我试过连续3天打了4针，打完医生说你不要再来了，因为类固醇有激素的啊，打完后我的脸就肿了，后面就发不出声音了。过了段时间我真的很怕。

陈：当时红了吗？

伊：红了，就是因为红了，所以怕不红。我不是说会不择手段去红，只是说要应酬的话，我很怕生的，不是很熟的人我不会交朋友的，所以唯一的方法就是，你给了我机会后，我就不停做，我不会消失，这就是我当时的所有观念了。当我不会消失的时候，我妈妈就可以還贷款，就不会担心下个月不会没钱。因为当时我姐姐有的在香港，有的在日本，我就在台湾。我们一家人感情好好的，这样就会有一个大家在一起的地方，大家可以住在一起，我16岁入行到26岁，我在日本的第一步就是存钱，这10年间我所有的钱就是给了家人。

Part2：父母离异幼年曾三地奔波

陈：你出身的环境是怎样的？你在哪里出世的？

伊：我是在台北出世的，我外公是当时很有知名度的政治家，他当时是基隆市的副议市长楊元丁，因为帮助了那些大学生被害。有一天晚上有人打电话他，说有大学生被抓了，我记得妈妈说当时外公很快就对着电话说“我很快回来”，结果就6天没见到他了。第6天就有很多人来到我家，拿走了很多东西，后来就在基隆河里见到了尸体，身上有6枪，被人绑住，就是我外公。爸爸是山东人，当时家里很有钱，当时政府说要去南京玩，说“上了这个火车，就可以去南京了。”结果他没有告诉爸爸妈妈，穿着拖鞋和T恤就上了火车，结果来了台湾。跟妈妈结婚后，生了7个女儿。我是最小的。中间死了3个孩子，有一对应该是男孩。

陈：爸爸在台湾做什么的呢？

伊：老实说，我爸爸是个很乐观的人，喜欢朋友多过家人。当时没钱，都为朋友两肋插刀。他其实是个很可爱的人，我当时觉得我妈妈一直做了一件很好很好的事，一直保持了我们几个女儿一个很善良的本质，就是我妈妈从来没说过或者离开过我的爸爸。

陈：你爸爸离开了你们？

伊：是的，我妈妈没说过一句不好。我出生那时我爸爸就走了。

陈：基本上你成长期间爸爸就不在你身边？

伊：我记得基本上就是断断续续。

陈：究竟是为什么事离开的呢？

伊：其实我也不是很明白，因为妈妈到现在也没有说得很清楚。但是我觉得这并不重要，因为我觉得他们两人对彼此都很怀念，我爸爸过世之后，我妈妈跟我阿姨都一直有联络。我曾经也有怨过他，怨他让我有家人也不能一起吃饭，那时我妈妈为我们付出了所有青春，一直为了我们工作。

陈：爸爸没支持过你们的生计？

伊：基本上没有。不但没有，爸爸还问妈妈要钱。不过我妈妈都一直觉得我爸爸应该是一个这样的人。

陈：爸爸不在，那么谁来照顾你们呢？

伊：当时我大姐和二姐是我爸爸照顾，三姐就由一个跟爸爸一起从山东来台湾的朋友照顾，到现在我们还喊他“爸爸”。我因为太小了，就把我交给一个保姆，我叫她“钟妈妈”。我跟她住了很长一段时间，我已经当她妈妈了。

陈：你当时觉不觉得自己很可怜，没有爸爸妈妈在身边？

伊：我不知道的，你不说我不知道的，我们都是大了之后，十几岁的时候才知道，原来是这样的。其实小孩子的世界，很多敏感是不会出现的。很多爱是不会缺乏的。他们不会知道什么事情是正常还是不正常的，因为这是成人世界的界定。我当时觉得他们很爱我啊，我还有一个阿姨送来爱我呢。我当时觉得很幸福呢，还很喜欢这个阿姨呢。

陈：多久见妈妈一次？

伊：一个月一次，不会很缺乏爱的。

陈：你在钟妈妈那里住了多少年？

伊：大概有6年，到6岁。

陈：那你后面去了哪呢？

伊：后来我慢慢大了以后我妈妈回来了，她觉得我跟钟妈妈实在太亲了。

陈：好像没了个女儿一样？

伊：是啊，所以当时她就跟钟妈妈说，她想带我走，还要把我二姐、三姐一起带到爸爸朋友那里，让他来照顾我们。

陈：那你爸爸朋友在台湾住了多久后来香港呢？

伊：因为大姐当时是在香港住的，而爸爸的朋友身体越来越差，没办法再照顾我们了。当时我大姐已经20多岁了，就觉得不如带我们一起来香港，跟大姐一起住，当时爸爸也在香港。然后就来了香港住。

陈：当时来到陌生的香港，是不会说广东话的哦？

伊：恩，不会，当时离开台湾的时候很伤心，因为慢慢交了朋友，老师也很爱我，都觉得很安定。

陈：当时妈妈带你来香港，后来妈妈又走了？又回了台湾？

伊：是。

陈：来到香港是跟大姐住？

伊：是，当时大姐是有男朋友的，都跟我家人住在一起。

陈：曾经有报道说，当时你跟大姐住在一起的时候，姐夫对你不是很好？

伊：其实我觉得这个有点误传。当时我们都没床睡，都睡在尼龙床上。有一次我就拿了火柴，就玩火，当时那些尼龙都融了，闯了很大的祸，当时整个床都烧起来，还烧了我的头发，马上拿了一桶水浇到床上。后来又想不行，他们回来一定会骂我，最好的办法就是扔了这张床，当时就把它拿上3楼，将那张“床”扔到楼下。后来姐夫回来，看见床不见了，就问我那张床呢？我说不见了，他问为什么不见了？我就说就是不见了。后来姐夫在楼下发现了那张“床”，看见上面烧了一个洞，后来他就拿了树枝来打我，还说“以后不准再玩火了”。当时我就觉得，为什么要给他这么打呢？所以后面就跟他对抗了。

陈：就因为这样，后来妈妈来看你，你就告状了？

伊：不光是告状这么简单，还包括其他很多反叛的地方。比如说我当时皮肤很差的，还哮喘，全身长泡。当时姐夫就会买双氧水，还加上热水，整个往我身上浇。这让我很不喜欢，觉得你为什么这么对我？后来妈妈一来，看我这么多病，又带我回去了。

陈：回台湾后又跟着妈妈？

伊：是，后来没多久就去日本了。

陈：为什么要去日本呢？

伊：当时我妈妈再嫁，去了日本。我现在有个感觉，觉得妈妈其实很牵挂我，曾经觉得她一直想帮我放去一个可以摆脱我的环境，其实是想帮我找到一个最好的环境。原来是我不明白。

Part3：觉得在日本的日子最黑暗

陈：每个人都有过去，说到你的到日本的过去，又重新开始学日文，你去之前，有见过你的继父吗？

伊：没有。

陈：那你去了之后跟他完全不能沟通？

伊：没法沟通。

陈：你妈妈会日文吗？

伊：会的，当时。但是我妈妈当时的日文处于一个很复杂的阶段，就是跟我继父恋爱后，学了很多我继父的男人说的日文。所以这个日文让我们之间的关系发生了很多事，包括我也是。我一开始也是跟继父学的日语，后来就觉得我的日语很粗俗，后来就送我去日语学校，然后再读书，我在日语学校学了3个月。当时我继父就说，如果你连最简单的日语都不会，就别想在日本读书了。因为这件事，我就觉得一定要跟上给你看。

陈：结果搞定了吗？

伊：跟上了。我整夜的背书，后来就学得很快，进了环球学校。我觉得就是从那段日子开始，如果说人生有黑暗期的话，我觉得那段日子就算现在任何人来看，都是黑暗期。

陈：为什么这么黑暗呢？

伊：首先我入的那个环球学校，有着很复杂的环境。有大明星啊，全世界的华人都在那里，所以学校里分了很多“派”，比如日本派就完全不说国语，国语派就很骄傲。日本派就看不惯说国语的，也比较有钱。另外有一派就纯粹说国语的，还有一派就比较粗暴的，后面我就慢慢分到说国语那一派。

Part4：被“校草”追遭日本女生殴打

陈：就是学校的环境，觉得很黑暗？

伊：我最记得就是当时学校有个男生追我，他是高三班篮球队的。那个男生是全校女生都很喜欢的人，是“校草”。当时他走开跟我说话，她们就警告我说，“你别太过分啊。”我记得中三那年，那个男生约我出去，当时我很想去，不是因为想约会，而是很多人去。但因为是男同学约，我妈妈不让去，我就想偷偷去，还把这件事跟一个同学说了，结果后来全班都知道了这件事，从那时开始，那些女生都很不喜欢我，我就很伤心。那些日本派的人就说我背叛了她们，还让我小心挨打。有一天很晚我帮同学做完事后，在路上就遇到日本派的几个女生，她们上来就扯我的头发和书包，然后就打我，还警告我说以后在学校别跟着学长，别以为学长约你出来你就认为得宠。

陈：你有没有跟爸爸妈妈说？

伊：有。因为我回来后身上都有淤伤，我的书包被人用刀划花了，裙子破了，我是坐电车回去的。我回去后妈妈问我发生了什么事？她要我跟老师说。可是我又不敢说，我說讲了你给不给我转学？爸爸妈妈就说：“转学太麻煩。會浪费一个学期。我想既然改變不了不说了，当没发生过。

陈：你有没有想过离开这个环境呢？

伊：有，所以那时候起我就觉得，我的人生要自己来作主，我不想再被人欺負，不想再被人踢来踢去。

陈：当时有没有想快点去日本学校呢?

伊：有，当时我就想考试，去日本学校。我继父那时就说你肯定考不上的。结果我又开始（“反叛”）了，然后考上了。

陈：你在日本住了多久就离开日本呢？又是为什么离开呢？

伊：当时我开始慢慢发现妈妈老了。子女跟妈妈去打高尔夫球，妈妈常常有尴尬的表情，因为那些妈妈团里的阿姨经常会攀比，儿子读什么学校，将来去什么会所工作，老公给多少生活费，戒指多少钱……可我妈妈不可能跟别人说不需要戒指，有饭吃就可以了的话。她们可能都觉得我妈妈是乡下人，因为我妈妈有时还会跟她们说一些很男人的日文，所以她其实很辛苦的。

陈：就是这个让你想走？

伊：是，因为有时我对她不尊重，跟她吵架的时候，她就会说：“如果不是为了你，我整个人生就没有了。”而我就会说：“你别再为我了，我走就行了。”她就发脾气说：“那你走啊，你养得起自己就去啊。”

陈：那你就走给她看？

伊：这些都是发脾气说的话，但当你一次、两次、三次，慢慢发觉她一个人坐着，望着窗外面，打电话给家人，永远都牵挂着她自己的姐姐、在台湾一起长大的朋友。她为了这些女儿，已经牺牲了十几年，我慢慢发现，这样下去，会拖累她，也会拖累我自己。我暑假回台湾，因为刘文正见到我的照片，就问我唱不唱歌？我问唱歌可以賺錢吗？我根本就是不是为了当明星，或者唱歌很有天分，而是为了賺錢。当时刘文正让我唱１０首歌，还说唱完给我２万台币（约４０００人民币）。我一想，如果一年能唱１００首歌，那不是有很多钱？可是后来我爸爸妈妈都反对，因为我读书很好。

陈：但你自己坚持要做？

伊：是。我决定了这件事，我就跟最好的同学说，“我拿到毕业证书就走。”我还偷偷拿打工的钱，请她帮我买机票，买了一张单程机票回台湾。走的前一晚，我下楼倒垃圾，拿了行李到楼下，接着早上５、６点起床，穿上校服，跟妈妈说“我走了”，然后拿着行李上了巴士，就回了台湾。

Part5：与哈林一见钟情婚前14年未同居

陈：你一回到台湾，加入歌唱行业，是不是就遇到到目前为止一生挚爱的哈林哥？

伊：恩。

陈：你在什么情景之下认识哈林的呢？

伊：其实在工作场合就见过几次了，因为我们差不多时间出道，差不多时间出碟。我想应该有人知道，我们一起参加一个、活动，回来的时候一辆车，很巧他就坐在我旁边。

陈：这么巧是不是他特意安排的？

伊：不是的，因为我给过他机会，但他不要。

陈：你给过他什么机会？

伊：上车之后他就过来坐我旁边，当时我其实已经听过他很多音乐了，当时中文歌是个悲风苦雨的时代，但一个男生很阳光，跳出来唱：“我知道我已经长大了……”你就会被吓住，所以当时就觉得“好有能力、好有性格、好特别，好独立。”

陈：还没认识他就已经被他吸引了？

伊：是啊。自己就会去买他的磁带来听。

陈：所以你一见到他，就已经一见钟情了？

伊：我一路从小到大，都很喜欢那些有才華的人，很容易发现，这个东西很好吃，这本书很好看，这个人很特别。我觉得自己有一种狗的嗅觉，我就感觉到他跟我是同一种气味的人。

陈：你有没有闻到哈林哥其实大你９岁？

伊：不知道，当时真的不知道。所以后来他就说，不可以的，千万不可以。因为当时一起出来玩，他就會说：“你刚成年”。他很乖，很孝顺，妈妈管他管得很严。我认识他十几年，他基本上没有晚上不回家的。

陈：你这么做，是不是希望他来追求你？因为你还给机会他。

伊：当时第一次见面，就跟他聊他的音乐，一转头他已经睡着了。下了车之后他问我住哪里，当时我很多很人追，各种阶层都有，做音乐的、幕后的、有钱人的儿子，他当时一问我，我就很快的回答说住在哪里，希望他送我回家。结果他说“我住在跟你反方向的地方，很远的……”然后就走了。

我在恋爱的时候，是个很受虐的人。奴隸型的女朋友，不需要对我太好。我喜欢他有性格，两人在一起的时候，可以说出不赞成我的地方。我反而不喜欢别人跪在我的裙下，因为我已经做了歌手，有很多人喜欢我，所以我反而很希望见到一个真诚的人。我觉得他很真诚，其实后面我们也无所谓谁追谁，一开始有些机会可以见面，比如做演唱会，会聊下音乐。后面认识了一些音乐人，大家会聚在一起，约歌，听音乐，就这样开始了。

陈：他去你家还是你去他家？

伊：当时是他来我家，不知不觉，但我们从认识到拍拖一直都过了很长时间，应该有一两年。因为他不是我当初想像中的男朋友。

陈：你想象中的男朋友什么样？

伊：像白马王子啊。

陈：你不是说他很帅吗？

伊：但我有时就喜欢很反叛的人，但他是很乖的。我以為会认识的應該是會摔吉他、很酷的人。

陈：那你从认识他、一起拍拖，到结婚之前，有没想过同居生活呢？

伊：没有。怎么可能？他们家那么严格，而且一直都有担心，因为我比他小很多。我又是偶像歌手，两家公司都反对。一个是才子、一个是女生偶像，我是“梦中情人”，他是才子，这两种人是不会在一起的。我们相识十几年，从来没试过在街上牵一次手。

陈：会不会怪过他？

伊：想过的，但是我尊重他，因为我觉得他担心会造成太多麻烦，讓这件事更加不顺利。因为我们相识、决定在一起，就希望能有一个好的结局，就是婚姻。但他一直觉得，这要等到他事业有成以后。他一直都很挑剔，对于作秀、唱歌就是有人在吃饭的表演，他一定不会做，到现在都是这样。我是什么都做的，只要给钱，我都会唱的，我要赚钱养家，他就不用，家里很安定。所以我们相识十几年，只看过３次电影，就在拍拖的时候，还是一前一后去的，买了票後，他先去找没什么人的电影院，然后两个人才坐在一起。

陈：没人看电影的时间？

伊：是，看完后就马上弹开，没试过在外面一起走。连旅行都是很后面的事情，跟他一起就是看电影，看碟。其实我们相处的时间很少，后来我来了香港发展，去了日本发展，他又来了香港发展，他一来就很顺利，因为学友唱了他的歌。我觉得那时候我在日本发展很好，但无论是在香港还是日本，我都是在发展很好的时候，但是为了想跟他一起，所以寧可選擇结束一个很好的市场。当时陈自强先生(成龍先生前經紀人)都来问，说成龙大哥的日本市场很好，我又会说日语，会唱歌，日本人都很喜欢我。他就跟我聊，希望我保住日本市场。但我觉得太辛苦了。因为我试过在日本出新碟，一张新碟做宣传，从冲绳做到北海道要一年半，这中间是没可能回去的。我试过３个月没见他，就觉得要崩溃了。晚上回房間电话從來都不會响，我觉得就算我大红大紫，在台上唱歌，回到家后，卻要自己煮方便麵吃，连最简单的，挨着他看电影的生活都没有，我为什么还要在台上？就算我知道这些人为了我这么疯狂，我也爱我的粉丝，但我是想跟他一起的。

陈：他没有要求你放弃的？

伊：没有，他不停鼓励我的。到了日本公司跟我续约的时候，我就说不行，我要回去了。那个时候我越来越大了，很想结婚。

陈：从８６年认识，到２０００年结婚，这个婚是不是你催他结的？

伊：中间有２年是这样的，这两年我很惨，因为当时我唱片公司换了，他们不要我了，那个时候我２８岁了，。当时觉得很辛苦，以前那么红，都没有了。自己又放弃了香港和日本，但他事业越来越好，见我的时间越来越少。他开始有点避开我，我又见不到他。突然间什么都没有了，事业没了，又已经２８岁，拍拖了１０年以上，那个人都没开口，想回去那些市场，又怎么开口呢？很彷徨很彷徨。

陈：那你就跟他说了？

伊：没有，在这之前我已经说过，当时我已经放弃了，我觉得我们不会结婚了，不论理由是什么，我都觉得不会结婚的。

陈：因为你说过后男朋友还是没动静？

伊：恩，他一直都没反应，当初認識我們都不承认了。但是我又不能跳出来说我们分手吧，因为我们从来就没说过在一起。所以在各种情况之下，我觉得，原来我十年人生是一场空白来的，因为我们一旦分了手，你跟这个人根本没在一起过。

Part6：发誓离婚与第三者无关诉说离婚的真实原因

陈：为什么后面２０００年会提出跟你结婚呢？是在什么情景下提的呢？你完全不知道吗？

伊：不是知道得很清楚，但是我觉得那些年我很辛苦的时候，他帮了我很多。我觉得现在回头来看，这个人的人品，他对爱情的执着，我想我这一辈子都不会再遇到第二个了。

陈：你跟他是在美国结婚的，这是刻意安排还是你选的？

伊：不是，当时在我觉得过两年没有这个结果的时候，有一次他终于带我去见他家人，他们唯一的愿望，就是希望我们两个人可以一起住，因为他们家三世单传，他是唯一的儿子。

陈：那你拍拖十几年，婚姻９年，是什么原因另到这个婚姻要画上一个句号呢？

伊：我觉得是因为我慢慢失去自己，我要说明一点，就是绝对跟任何人都没关系，是完全属于我个人的问题，与任何感情都没关系。

陈：不是因为第三者的出现？

伊：不是，这个我可以发誓来说，完全是因为我个人的关系。

陈：你失去了自己的什么？

伊：我们没一起住过，当我失去一个家庭环境之后，我觉得有一个家是很重要的，就是现在很多传媒是不公平的，不是对我不公平，是对他不公平。报道说他妈妈对我不好，从来没这件事，他妈妈对我很好，很欣赏我。吃饭时间，还有其他……我觉得她已经尽她最大的努力在迁就我了，她也很疼我。但是你知道，人与人之间的相处，有时不是对与错的问题，我没法跟我妈妈一起住，但我很爱她，她也很爱我。但我有我的生活习惯和生活方式。我活了３０年，一个人起床，一个人吃饭，一个人看着太阳发呆２个小时，想着我的猫，我不想有声音的时候，是安静的。这些生活细节对我来说，是构成我这个人最重要的成分，甚至是养分。如果你拿走我所有的感官，对着２４小时的电视，不准养猫，６点要准时吃饭，不能吃别的，别再看书……其实我有努力过的，如果有人看过我第一本书……当时有人说我不诚实，写得自己这么幸福。里面有一篇文章，我写着“你慢慢将我挖了一个洞，把握埋起来，生出另外一个我，而我还微笑着感谢你，埋葬了另一个我……”年轻的时候，想着要帮家人赚钱，但到后来，你越来越想的是我终于可以要回我想过的生活，没有精神压力，没有等待，是属于我的一种生活。但是，这些都慢慢消失了，或者你会失去大家庭的温暖，但同时你会要回属于自己的孤单的某种快乐。有一种东西，是从小到大陪着我，很熟悉很熟悉我的一个朋友，就是孤单。

陈：当你尝试跟另一个家庭一起生活，发现很困难，有没想过把这个问题提出来，跟哈林一起谈？

伊：我们没有实质上去谈过这个问题，因为之后我就开始去内地工作，因为我一旦提出来，可能解决的方法就是搬出去住，但我们以中国人的角度来看是万万不妥的，因为老人家都这么大年纪了，当时他妈妈的妈妈还没过世，如果做出这样一件事，我是没办法原谅我自己的，我没办法去劝一个人不孝顺，我做不到。我觉得我都有很多很软弱、很自以为是、以为自己可以另这件事变好的能力。

陈：那你有没有为儿子想过，你们两人分开后，他就没有一个完整的家庭，有没想过这个儿子陪你做牺牲？有没想过可不可以为这个家庭埋没下自己的事业？

伊：不可以说埋没自己，因为不是说想去拍戏所以这样，甚至我可以退出这个行业，但是我始终想要属于我自己的生活。但这不是说我婆婆对，还是我错的问题，因为一个人在这个世界上生活了三、四十年，另一个生活了八、九十年，他的姐姐，他妈妈的妈妈，他一大家子……我觉得婚姻的两个人都是很大的学问，学都学不完的。当我一夜之间发现是这样，还有我们两个都是公众人物，这么多人参与……已经让我们没有时间去改善生活中的细节，我觉得到后面我是节节败退。

陈：有没有跟儿子解释过这个状况？他明不明白？

伊：我觉得不用，因为第一，如果是一个很不舒服的环境之下，不如让他看见一个最舒服的状况。其实他没什么感觉的，因为首先这几年我一直在内地工作，而且我在台湾一直有自己的房子，我也是写东西到很晚，他很喜欢在我那玩。而且我跟哈林从来没在他面前吵过架。从我们还没开始沟通这件事之前，我们两个不停沟通配他的时间，所以从他明白事理的时候，就已经是这样的生活状况了。他觉得很好啊，因为妈妈对他说过：“你记得啊，我下班，你放学；你放假我放假。他问过一件事：“我是属于谁的呢？”我就对他说：“你不属于任何人，我们只不过是你人生中一个寄宿者，你寄居在我身体里，我养了你１８年，将来你就过你的人生。你失恋也好，你将来成就也好……我只能够照顾你，但不能够帮助你的過任何屬於你的生活，更不能幫你思考。在这个世界上成为你这个人，所有的事，都是是属于你自己的。就是因为这样，所以你要知道父母的爱有多伟大，因为你不是他们的，他们都这么爱你。你只要知道一件事，就是无论你发生任何事，我们都在你身边。”

陈：你有没问过小哈林想跟你还是跟爸爸？

伊：没有，没这样问他，也不应该这样问，我也希望他跟爸爸多点，因为我已经没资格要求从他身边拿走任何东西，因为我已经拿走一样很重要的东西，就是我。而且我知道他有人品、很善良，我知道他是个很好的人，所以将儿子放在他身边，是一件幸福的事。

他也问过：“为什么你这么忙呢？”因为他知道爸爸忙是很正常，但现在妈妈为什么也这么忙？我就会问他说：“你画画的时候，我次次叫你都听不到，或者你说‘再给多我十分钟，求求你……’我说在我人生里，也有一些时候是听不到你叫我的。比如说作为一个演员，在遇到一个很好的角色的时候，我是听不到的。那个时候我不是庾澄庆的老婆，我不是小哈林的妈咪我是一个叫伊能静的人。”我这么跟他说的时候，他马上就明白了。他说：“我希望你听不到我叫你的时候，你很开心。”他是一个跟我一样星座、同一血型的孩子，一个很敏感、也是一个很开心的孩子。

陈：那你日后不见他会不会很多？

伊：其實我們見的很多，只不过狗仔队不知道。比如之前有报纸写我情人节一个人在北京购物，然后又发了一张我在日本被人跟拍的照片，但其实那个情人节我们一起在淡水打球、喝咖啡、洗温泉，因为哈林有事做，所以我陪他。今年過年说我没回来跟家人，在上海。其实我有，我有回台湾跟家人一起，连初一、初二都在一起，初三我们就去了北海道。

我觉得现在我的立场很为难，你说的多，别人说你拿儿子出来做宣传，但哪个妈咪不带儿子出来呢？但你说得少呢，又说你根本没见过这个儿子。我觉得这个很为难，但我仍然承担了这个结果，我想在这个年龄，放弃了一个２２年的关系，好像一种生命存在的存在，其实很需要勇气。

Part7：否认得千万房产，认为自己已是富婆

伊：其实有孩子的这两年很幸福的，我记得当初我有ＢＢ的时候，我没有跟他说，我忍了３个月，等他稳定。后来我们去了巴厘岛，我们结婚一周年的时候，我送了张相，里面写着“恭喜你！”

陈：里面写着你有个儿子了？

伊：是啊，这两年内好幸福，但再过两年，我觉得我彻底放下做我自己。

陈：融入了这个家庭生活？他的大家庭的生活？

伊：应该做的都做了，也都很心甘情愿。我觉得当时他事业很好，我就帮他写歌词、整理衣服，我也想过换下观念，我将所有东西都给他了，我自己完全没有了。但后来就开始反省，我想所有女性都走过这条路，只不过我早了一点。

陈：是你先提出分开的？还是哈林？

伊：不是，是慢慢我们就这个问题达成共识了，因为我觉得这个世界上有人爱你，你爱他，你不开心，他不会开心的，这个才是爱。当你开始不是太开心，或者他不是太开心，是有感觉的。

陈：所以你们今年３月２０日，提出个结束婚姻关系的声明，但其实你们之前已经开始分居、分开生活了？

伊：因为我自己在北京买了房，在台湾也有房，所以我开始的时候就想给自己多点空间。因为儿子３、４点放学，我就陪他写点作业，他也开始有自己的生活。我到那時候才发现，他第一天去上学我就哭的不行，因为不知道空余时间我可以做什么，我觉得很多事要做，但也不知道到底要做什么呢？我先生可能两三个星期才回来一次。

我记得发完声明后看了一篇报道，说我很痛苦，对朋友哭诉，我真的很想问是哪个朋友？如果这个时候跳出来说话的，怎么会是朋友？如果出来说话的，我不承认是我的朋友。有的记者说，我为什么要问这些事呢？因为我关心你。如果你真的关心，如果一个人死的时候，比如你父亲去世的时候，我朋友不会跟我说，“你爸爸是不是真的死了？”这不是关心你，一个关心你的人会说：“吃饭吧，继续生活。”我不觉得这是关心，如果真的关心，请“沉默！”我很感激这件事发生的过程中，两家的人没有出声，传媒的报道完全没有两家人说的话。因为全部都是“有人说”，“友人”……但这些“友人”都无名无姓，所以我想说的是，我很感谢婆婆这几年对我的宽容，我相信她都明白我也尽了力。我觉得她真的是一个很好的妈咪，他值得这个儿子这样去孝顺她。

陈：你还爱哈林吗？

伊：我相信这一生里，到我走之前，他永远都以一种形式存在，但不是你们说的他是小哈林的爸爸这种生硬的关系，而是我１８岁认识他、２８岁认识他，我３８岁他还在这里，到以后他都还会以一种形式存在。我希望他快乐，到有一天他有了新的另一半，我都会觉得你值得拥有。而我自己，我觉得需要付出一些代价。如果我选择一个人，最后很孤单，老病死了，我都觉得安心，因为这个就是我的选择，我也不会后悔。

陈：你自己不会再谈恋爱吗？

伊：暂时不会了，因为第一，答应过这个儿子。第二，我觉得对大家都不公平，因为人人相信、人人很有期待，人人并认为爱情大过天。除了这个儿子，没有任何事可以比得上“爱人”这件事重要。那个曾经为了爱情不怕考验的我，或者为了爱他不要日本市场的我，到现在都没变过，

陈：那将来如果有个人，你也会为了爱情什么都做？

伊：恩

陈：你现在是不是个富婆啊？报道都写你离了婚，哈林买了上海、北京、台北，一共１６００多万的物业给你，是不是真的分了这么多财产？

伊：其实写这个部分當初寫的杂志社已经跟我们道歉和解了。我跟哈林认识的时候，我们两个都很穷，爱是最重要的。我觉得自己已经是富婆了。工作上并没什么损失，我仍然在拍广告，非常感谢我的广告商，他们相信我很独立。

陈：他们没飞掉你？

伊：没有，还多增加了几个。

之前没发离婚声明的时候，手头上有５个广告，到现在有了８支广告，大家很快就可以见到了。我觉得这些都不重要，因为大家看过就会证明。

我从来没有要过哈林的物业，之前北京属于他名下的物业，依然在他名下。因为当时是我帮他挑的，所以如果现在要收回到他名下，也是我帮他再挑。包括我今天来上这个节目，我也跟他说，一定会多谢妈妈，我会跟大家说妈妈是一个很好的妈妈，这个是他最重视的。同时我也会很感谢你。

陈：我很感谢你跟我们分享了这么多的心路历程，这不是一个很简单的经历，我相信这里面有很多挣扎的时刻，很开心你跟我们分享了这么多的人生历程。

當初相識只因相愛，而若愛消逝，亦不該相害。

給依然相信愛的

共勉之

Courtesy from 伊能静靜靜的海洋

Keeping the Sabbath

2009-04-26T15:11:00.002+08:00

Keeping the Sabbath

Courtesy of GraceThruFaith

Celebrating The Feasts

2009-04-26T14:29:00.001+08:00

Q. I was at a Bible study recently and the leader of the group is a Messianic Jew and he was talking about the feasts of Israel. He was saying that the early church for the first 300 years celebrated the feasts. I have been around a few Messianic Jews and know that they do continue to celebrate the feasts. My question is – when Paul penned the Galation Epistle and talked about the keeping of the Mosaic Law vs. Faith in Christ – was he also including the feasts? I strongly feel from scripture that there really should not be any distinction between Jew and Gentile because Ephesians and other Epistles make it very clear we are one in Christ and should be in Christ. While I certainly believe Hebraic teaching and understanding the old testament is certainly vital to our walk with God – are we going back under the law in observing the feasts of Israel as Christians? I do not have the material to research to see if what he is saying is true for the early church celebrating the feasts other than scripture and I see no evidence in scripture that they kept any observance other than the Lord’s supper. Could you expound please?

A. I don’t know where your Bible study leader got his information from, but the New Testament clearly made the observance of the Feasts of Israel optional for the Church long before 300 AD. Their primary value for us lies in their historical and prophetic significance. Both can be greatly enhanced by observing the feasts, but we’re under no obligation to do so.

In Romans 14:5 Paul wrote:

One man considers one day more sacred than another; another man considers every day alike. Each one should be fully convinced in his own mind.

And in Colossians 2:16-17 he said:

Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day. These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ.

In saying these things he made all religious celebrations optional, subject to our individual convictions.

Courtesy from GraceThruFaith

Tithing Vs. Paying Debts

2009-04-26T13:57:00.002+08:00

Q. I appreciate your insight and thank you for your ministry. If you have the time to help with this question, I would appreciate it.

I am trying to balance tithing vs. paying off debt. My question to you is, do I not tithe at all, and focus all the allowable funds towards debt? Do I split the debt payments and tithing? Or do I tithe 10% and what’s left over pay towards debt?

In addition to money, I give my time to the church teaching two Sunday school classes and buying each of my students a teenage study bible each year. By the way, I rely on your website as a good source of information for my students.

A. This is a much more complex question than it appears to be because it goes to philosophy and motive, not just action.

First, the philosophy. One purpose of tithing is to teach us that God has an abundance of money and is a generous giver to those who give generously to His work. (Luke 6:38) He wants us to have an abundance mentality, which means we believe there’s no limit to His ability to see to our needs. Remember, He said, “I have come so that they can have life and have it abundantly.” (John 10:10)

Your question reveals that like most people, you have a scarcity mentality. That means you believe there’s only a certain amount of money available to you and you have to find a way to make it go around. This is the opposite of an abundance mentality, and it stems from the belief that you and you alone are responsible for the money you get.

Next comes the motive. Tithing is an expression of our gratitude for what God has already given us. It’s not something we do in the hope of making our future better. If you are sincerely thankful for what the Lord has given you, regardless of your current circumstances, then tithing is your way of saying thanks. Seeing that you’re grateful for what He’s already given you, the Lord will bless you with more.

But withholding our tithe, or giving with an expectation of future blessing, reveals that our true motivation is greed, and short circuits the process.

This is all summed up in Proverbs 11:24-25.

One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty.

A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.

If you’re grateful for what you’ve already received, then give generously to the Lord’s work without expectation of future gain. This will release Him to be generous with you in return.

Courtesy from GraceThruFaith

No Backseat Driving

2009-04-26T13:45:00.005+08:00

Courtesy of nakedpastor.

A very interesting cartoon which I always wanted to put JC as the driver of my car. It's so difficult sometimes that putting Him in control of my car. We can't even feel too safe when our we let our friends drive our car, how could we let Him do that? Well, that will happen when I didn't know who is Him. Understanding Him in the past allows me to really know well who should I trust. :D

Hot Hot Hot

2009-04-26T13:43:00.001+08:00

The hot weather in my place is really killing a lot of people who is sick and having exams. This hot weather force me to think about global warming and the effects of human civilization done to the earth. Again, it also reminds me about why God wanted to separate people to reach to Him in Babylon. All because of the selfish pride of human trying to move towards the world of evil desires to become Him.

Even though I might be seem as an extremist in disguise, but this speaks my heart out. Ain't we here to protect God's garden of eden and the creature that lives in this earth? Ain't we people that would be sent back to heaven which I think earth itself is a shadow of heaven?

Oh well, all my concern now is about my great grandma, my friends and people whom I think is in need of help. But how about the Earth that God created?

This climate changes doesn't only affects the Earth in terms of temperature but also in other areas such as starvation, war, economic crisis, psychology illness and etc. I started to realise that Global Warming is not only affecting the temperature on the newspaper today. The war is crying out loud now in almost everywhere. Piracy (Pirates), Rebellions and also political changes that is taking over the newspaper seems to be getting more and more. Starvation and lack of food is also another issues that the world is facing now. More and more crimes is getting in our daily lifes. So what can us as a Christian do to help the world?

What will Jesus Christ do as a human in earth?
What's God purpose for human in this earth?
Does earth only meant to be exploited by us as much as we can and eventually death comes to our way?
Too many things is going on either we aware about it or not...
People are struggling on the issues they are facing now....
Will they look at the bigger picture of the issues?
Will they know what's the truth behind all this things that is going on?

I watch watchmen the graphical comic from Jacob. Depressing indeed but it's true. The life of human is getting wicked by days. Not because I saw it but because me myself is getting wicked days by days. God ask us to deny ourselves and carry the cross and our daily worries with Him. I'm sure that it includes our evil thoughts and behaviours.

Well, I have a few ideas.
1. Getting ourself equipped with God's word to prevent any spiritual changes that will affect our heart towards God.
2. Read the newspaper to update ourself with the problems that the world and our community is facing.
3. Take actions that will really benefit the issues and tackle it in anyways you can. For example, as a student, I might not have a lot of money but what I have is time, strength and countless passion that can be pour out to serve the God's creation well.
4. Pray and let God lead us in making any of the decisions that need a balance between 2 choices.
5. Tell others and share about this issue, and who knows, more people will have same faith as you. They might walk with you in this journey.
6. Know our capabilities in dealing with all this issues. If we are only capabilites of donating our money, just do it and pray to God so that He bless us with what we should do.

All this applies to every situation or issues that we are facing. All we need to do is to admit that we are weak, pray for forgiveness of incapibility and ask for help from God.

John 16:24
Assurance of Answered Prayer.

Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete. A strong word to start for a prayer.

God I also pray that churches are meant to be a place for us to grow but not to hinder us from you. I also pray that CS, L, A, C will be able to know the true purpose of having a church in our body, soul, spirit and mind. Amen.

Unusual Experience

2009-04-18T16:05:00.001+08:00

I couldn't imagine that I would cry for my friend who is getting further and further from God. It was an unusual act of emotional expression. Erm, maybe it is just trying to tell God that I wish something better could happen. It might seems to be the right choice to choose, but we know that things will be different when God is not put first in our life.

The experience that me and others tell me that life is really meaningless without God. Even though you might be picking the right path that the world of desires prefer, but you yourself too knows that it is not completed in holiness and righteous. I always challenge myself by questioning whether God was put first before anything else? Or it is just my own desire or dreams that I put first before God?

Matthew 6:33

Do Not Worry

²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life^[b]?
²⁸"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I pray that God, You will provide wisdom and strength to C and L who is struggling to follow you. God I need you in their life. Being able to touch them deep in their heart. Protect them from temptation and the suffering from life itself. God provide them with the promises that you gave to people who believe in you. I also pray that I can more sensitive to people around me especially my friends in Christ which includes friends who is seeking for Christ. God I also pray that prayers itself is sufficient that it gives me peace but God I also pray that my Life would be filled with your Godly peace. Peace that lead me and people around me to You. Life itself take the course, with God guiding us. Amen

Working

2009-03-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

Blogging from office since there's no work given to me yet.
I'm currently working Pengunnding Ukur Tekun (PUT) http://www.put.com.my/ . I'm working as a technical drafter for a sub Project. My job is to use a software that can transform 2D pictures to 3D image. By doing this, I can actually accurately calculate the distance from a point to a point in the picture without measuring it. It's a field that is quite new in Malaysia, a technology we called Digital Photogrammetry.

The technology enable us to use only pictures to capture the 3D moment of a scene. It has been use in insurance claims for accident to calculate the damage of the car, car manufacturer to check for imperfection of car's body and also used in big stracture to estimate check for small cracks. Besides that, it can also be used as a device to copy a model using photos. For example, using only 3 pictures from different angle, I can make a 3D object of a branded model of car and reproduce the exactly same car in that software. Imagine the usefulness of this software.

So, I do hope others can implement this technology in their projects. It helps to reduce the risk and the cost of doing certain measurements. Anyway, I can't name the software and the project I'm doing, cause it's a P & C information of the company. Hola, back to work.

Gambling

2009-03-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

I went to Genting and had gambled. Temptation and excitement was there. But would it be an issue just to start tasting what is gambling?

Check this web and i realise, it might be an issue.

Is Gambling A Sin?

"Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.
1 Corinthians 6:12

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
2 Timothy 2:22

Avoid every kind of evil.
1 Thessalonians 5:22

So, is it an issue? You make the conclusion. :D

The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus

2009-03-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

A cartoon i got from a website introduced by Kristen and Justin.
The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus

Untitled

2009-03-09T15:14:00.000+08:00

I was once a loving person but now I start to wonder into the darkness.
I asked myself, what makes it so?
Heart broken, directionless, the harden of my heart or the sin that I used to justify my weaknessess...

I was a person who cares, but now I'm selfish and insensitive.
I asked myself again, what makes it so?
Poverty, untrustworthy, or my own harden heart that prevents me from moving on...

Who cares whether I'm a good or a bad person?
Only God cares.

So do I need to care about what others have to think of me?
Yes I do, because our purpose of life always include people around us who think, critisize, challenge, praise and work with me. God created them not because of me, but because of God. They are the kingdom of God in earth and in heaven. Without them, our purpose of life doesn't seem to "click" with God's purpose for us.

A lot of times, my depression was caused by people and myself. It was never something non-human . Is there a meaning to this chronic depression of mine? What does it means to have a thought that really triggers my thought? Does it means like what Job's friend said when they trying to give advice to Job, too many things happen for a reason?

But one thing for sure, God used our weaknessess to tell us something. Something that is important, or I would say, something that really mean strength to us. That is where we withdraw strength from God himself, by looking at our weaknesses and thanks God for telling us, and provide a way out so that we can stand up under it (1 Corinthians 10:13).

Steve Jobs' Life Story

2009-03-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

My Daylight Robbery in 61 (Petaling Jaya)

2009-02-17T18:25:00.000+08:00

It was an exciting moment of thrill and adrenaline rush throughout my body. I feel a lot alive compare to the few days before. I felt the basic instinct of surviving, I felt I was alive.

It happen a few hours ago...
(Well, before I tell you the story, let's have a glimpse at what happen long long time ago... this post : The Day I was Afraid)

All this happen around 1pm, 17 Feb 2009, yeah it is today...

   Lance was back from paying the bills, waiting for me downstairs. I was making myself ready at the 2nd floor to tapau all my rubbish to move to his house. Then suddenly, I heard some people coming in our house, I realise something is going wrong and run down and saw 2 malay guys wearing helmet asking, "Mana XXX? Dia tinggal sini, panggil dia." The moment I heard this, I sense that something is wrong, so I stop one of the big guy from going up to the 2nd floor. He was wearing a blue jeans,white collar shirt and a silver helmet. The moment I try to stop him from moving, he took his "parang" out.

   You know la, when psychotic people like me saw a parang, sure I will run back to my room. I locked myself in my room and started shouting "Tolong!". I don't know why I shout in malay, maybe because they were Malays??? Straight after I shout, the door was break and the "parang" is in front of me. I dunno why, but he ran down back to where Lance is.

   At that moment, my mind only focus on running. So where's the best place to run? Definitely the balcony, which I will jump if they try to hurt me. So I quickly take the keys hanging beside me and open the balcony's door and stay outside the fence of the balcony (I forgot to lock it, damn.) . I took off my shirt and wave to anyone that I saw. Only my neighbour reponse to my help, other people was just passing by. ( What a sad scenario...) I use my body language and movement of my lips to tell her that I was robbed. She ask her maid to call the police.

   Right after that, the big guy come and look for me. Shit, the "parang" still in his hand. I know I have to surrender. So I let him search my pockets, and luckily I hide my stuff under my bed but unfortunately, my phone is in my pocket T_T. He took my phone and run down to the living room. I don't know what they are doing there, but a moment later, I saw a bike with 2 person on it, speeding out from our house.

   That was the time when my rational mind come back to me, I ran down and grab the phone that the neighbour hand it to me and contact the police.

Description of the Suspect :
First Suspect - Around 30 year old Malay male, 175cm, Bigger size than me. wearing blue jeans ,white collar shirt and wearing silver helmet when they robbed us.
Second Suspect - Malay male with unclear age. He was wearing orange chocolate stripes shirt.
Both Suspect was suspect to take drugs before they rob us.
They was riding on a bike with plate WBQ 8841.

The ronda police came 5mins after the event took place. I'm glad the police did their job. Those are not normal police, they are armed police. I feel like I'm in a police movie. Anyway, we did our job by reporting to the new section 17 Police Department near the nasi kandar there. ( Reminder: We must always make a report no matter how inconvinience it is to do those report.) We were ask to go to the cirminal police departmeent at mutiara damansara to be interviewed by Inspector Kalang. Handsome man with a good manner. It was a total different experience from what I had in Rawang. The police in Rawang was rude! We finish our questioning and we heard back for home. The police was there to take photos and look at the surrounding. One weird part of it was, why are they asking me about the price of the rental and house??? The 1st police until the last police ask the same question.

The end of my story and my experience.

Please remember this number plate WBQ 8841 and take a photo of the driver and mail it to me. Please, your cooperation will definitely improve PJ's calm and peaceful environment :D.

After the robbery, lance and me discussed on the factors that cause this robbery.
1. We didn't LOCK our DOORS!
2. NO CURTAINS blocking their view inside the house
3. They realize we are moving house. Rubbish all outside the house.
4. Lastly, it was lance 1st time, he is still a virgin. :D He was robbed of his virginity and dignity in surprise :D.

Viewing from a psychological aspect, there is a few factors that save and delay us from harm.
1. The moment we sense danger, seek for safety and help. An example for my experience is that I run upstairs and lock myself in the room. While in the room, I shout as loud as I can for help. That anyhow, alert the dogs and my neighbour.
2. Seek for open space or places that normally public can see. Well, I think I did that pretty well. I ran to the balcony and wave my shirt for help again. And that was a critical move, it cause the robber to hesistate stabbing me in open air. It was also the time where my neighbour saw me. A mistake is that I didn't lock the balcony door. Ish!
3. Our house is too messy to really find anything valuable. HAHA, I have to say, making ourselves a mess actually helps.:D
4. Hide your belongings in places that is totally unpredictable. I hide it under my bed.

There's always something disspointing in tragedy like this, here's one.
   Never ever just stop and ignore shouts that come out suddenly. Those are critical moments where crime was happening. Don't be idle, be alert and look for the source. You might actually save a life from being curious and brave. That's what nowadays people lack of, being curious.
   Another thing is that people seems to critize on the event that is happening and ignore the feelings and emotion of the victim. Those people are people I call them 马后炮. They only help to make you more troublesome and making you feeling down after what had happen. I pity lance, cause he gonna go through that later tonight.

A bit of information.

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A forwarded email.

Subject: Rise In Crime Rate In Klang Valley
Date: Wed, 25 Jun 2003

Dear Ladies & Gentlemen

Key this number into your handphones! Please be careful!
Some good advises for the prevention of crime.
The telephone number 03-22626555 is to Bukit Aman!
Hotline Wilayah Police: 03-20520199

It was brought to our attention by the city police that
there has been a 7% rise in crime rate in Klang Valley (Kuala
Lumpur) over the weeks.

These crimes are mainly Bag Snatching, House Break-Ins, Car Thefts
and etc. By far Bag Snatching has been the one with the biggest
increase and police is advising especially ladies to avoid walking
about with hand bags if possible.

During the meeting it was also brought to our attention that the
emergency number 999 is at times not well manned so calls can go
unanswered. This happened recently when the German Ambassador tried
calling 999 when his house was broken into and could not reach
police
in time to avoid the robbery. Police now have a control centre
telephone number and everyone should be able to call in case of
emergency. The number is 03 2262 6555. Please keep this number handy
and educate your family members on this.

Please find below some tip on Bag Snatching.

Bag snatching.
Never carry a handbag, but instead try a backpack style worn
correctly or a 'bum bag'. Do not carry anything in your bag you
cannot afford to lose. Be particularly mindful of your bag when you
are on your hand phone, loading the car, getting in and out of a
taxi
in a crowded area or if motorbikes are coming past you. To help
prevent snatch thieves taking your phone, switch it to vibrate, keep
it in your pocket and use a hands free set while walking ? If they
can't see or hear it, its less likely to attract attention. Walk
away
from the kerb edge, not along the side of the road.

Mugging.
Be suspicious if you get a puncture after leaving a bank or ATM. It
is possible that someone saw you withdraw the cash and placed the
nail in your tyre so they could grab it as they offer to help you
change your wheel. Be suspicious of people offering to help you into
your car with shopping etc. It's easy for them to snatch a bag when
you are occupied with kids or bags.

Sexual assaults/Improper advances.
With an assault, scream, shout, fight, run? Do whatever is.
Necessary to attract attention to yourself and get out of the area
fast. It goes without saying that most attacks of this type tend to
happen in isolated, dark or empty places ? Avoid such places if
alone
and make sure that you have your hand phone available ? If you are
unhappy, start making calls, describing the man/ the taxi driver,
registration number, location, anything that will put the attacker
off before hand. With improper advances; most offences of this type
tend to happen in public, and in crowded places; particularly on
buses and in trains. The best way to deal with this is SHOUT,
directly at the offender or in his general direction and tell him,
in
no uncertain terms that you do NOT want him to touch you. Don't get
off at the next station, unless its your stop and there's people
with
you. If its in the workplace? Report it immediately.

Emergency Numbers

Police & Ambulance 999
Fire Brigade 994
Civil Defense 991

Police Stations
Kuala Lumpur - HQ 2262-6222
Selangor 5510-5522
Shah Alam 5510-2222
Petaling Jaya 7956-2222
Subang Jaya 5633-2222
KLIA Police 8787-2222
Dang Wangi 2691-2222
Brickfields 2274-4465
Cheras 984-2222
Ampang 4252-2222
Klang 3371-2222
Damansara 7722-2222
Puchong 8075-2222
Subang SAAS Airport Police 740-2299

Fire Brigade
Kuala Lumpur 2148-6362
Petaling Jaya 7958-5870, 7958-4444
Shah Alam 5519-4444
Traffic Offence Hotline 232-1140

Taken from Palmdoc's page of useful Malaysian info for your PDA
http://medicine.com.my/palmdoc

Phew, things go so fast that I almost forget, I still need to clean up my house! Yeah I'm finally back to myself. Dang, I didn't know an event like this actually pump my motivation to do something. :D

Job's Story

2009-02-15T22:49:00.001+08:00

A Story of Grace Through Faith

Book of Job

The Lord said to Job, “Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself?” -Job 40:8

The Bible Thru The Eyes Of Its Writers:
Job's Story : Part 1
Job's Story : Part 2 , Job 3-14
Job's Story : Part 3 , Job 15-19
Job's Story : Part 4 , Job 20-36
Job's Story : Part 5 , Job 37-42
Job’s Story : Conclusion, Job 37-42

Have i justified myself for my own suffering of my own actions and sins?

Random

2009-02-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wonder what it feels like, when the world around you turn against you?

Happy Valentine

2009-02-12T11:05:00.002+08:00

OMG PINKIE makeup!!!

Home

2009-01-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

To me, home was a place of death and comfort.

Changes

2008-12-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

Titus 3:3-7

3At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another.
4But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared,
5he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit,
6whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior,
7so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life.

At one time, I were a fool.
At one time, I was stubborn.
At one time, I was deceived.
At one time, I were a slave.
Am I still what I am at one time? Ask me and I would say, yes and no.
Yes, because I still think I am, with the sin I have.
No, because I think I have changed for whom I am.

Things happen and times zoom through our life, then only we realise that , we are fools, stubborn, rebellious, naive and stupid enough to not realise the weaknesses that we have.

Once, we are a weak person, saved by God himself.
Now, we are still a weak and sinful person, but with God's grace, we were saved.

Sometimes I ask myself, do I listen to what God want to say to me?
Or I just choose to harden my heart and close my ears...
No matter how old I am, changes is always there. Whether is it a change for God or a change for our own desires, that will determine our life. A life with God and a life by God.

Confusing

2008-12-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

aha, confusing.

Canon Rock played by Guitar

2008-12-14T12:24:00.001+08:00

The NEW Canon Rock -- Guitar by MattRach, 15 yr old guitarist

Funtwo

JerryC

Combine of all the electronics guitar in YouTube

How about Acoustic Guitar??

The Original Pachelbel's canon in D Major

Wealth

2008-11-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

One day, you wake up and found that your fridge is full of Yakult, how would you react?
That was what happen in my fridge when I open it.
My first reaction would be OMG, and then ask who put this in for us.

Our life itself is like a fridge. Everyday, there's events that come in and out. There's food that need to be finish. There's also cans that will last forever long.

The content of the fridge itself will also show the lifestyle of a person. Are you a vegetarian? Conscious about your health? Junkie ? or just a normal house wife.

Well my fridge is still stuff with something else.

Brick Walls

2008-11-13T08:36:00.002+08:00

"Brick Walls are there for a reason:
They let us prove how badly we want things;
Let us show our dedication.

"By standing together, the world is good. "

(Professor Randy Pausch, Sept. 18, 2007)

Untitled

2008-11-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

What can I do to help someone there is far away?
How did my parents manage to stay together even after they are apart all the time?

Thanks God for blessing my family.

Untitled

2008-10-25T13:29:00.000+08:00

I miss her

Lousy

2008-10-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

I have cried for my selfishness, I have cried for my uncapability, and I have cried for being useless.
But I never really admit that I have a lousy attitude, a lousy emotion and being a lousy person.
There's a lot of regrets in my life and a lot of missed targets.

What have I done? I have done terrible things that hurt someone that I love. My parents, my friends, my love. None of them deserved to be treated that badly by me.
So what am I doing in this world that is created and destoryed by my own selfishness? Is it to bring happiness or suffering to others? I start to feel that my life ain't worth much compare to what Jesus did. He does value our life, but do I?

I wonder, if my life ended, what would people remember me as? A person that never hold on to promises? A person who always make others frustrated? A person who never been sensitive to others? A person lack of discipline and humility?

Looking at what she writes, I really really have to take myself seriously in things that I have done. Have I think about the consequences of decision that I make?

A new semester have started, but my life still continues with no improvement and changes that makes me a disciples of Jesus. Haiz, lousy me.

Fragile

2008-10-13T16:46:00.000+08:00

Little life of Kara is so fragile that God may want to take her away from her parents. I pray that Justin and Kristen would be able to help her to survive through this period of pain and suffering. God I know that our life is on your hand, but please protect Kara from this handicap that she is having and allow her to bring joy to her parents and people around her.

嘉恋-彩虹二辑(卡通+天后)

2008-10-06T11:57:00.000+08:00

An interesting video from a gal named Julia (嘉恋).
Her website 一个嘉恋
The best part are where she mimics the anime characters. Got doraemon!!!

Awareness Test

2008-10-06T11:21:00.001+08:00

Rain Drops

2008-10-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

The rain that pours so heavy, break my harden heart, soften my wicked soul.

Suffering, Perseverance, Character and Hope

2008-09-24T02:09:00.001+08:00

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” (Romans 5:3-4)

Consistency brings success.

Present

2008-09-20T16:09:00.002+08:00

Present is a present that God presented to us.
Present is a grace by God and people around us.
Presented the right present, brings joy and happiness to ourselves and others.

Did I take granted of my present?
Did I not present my present to people I like?
I'm still living and enjoy the present life of mine, so what else do I need?

Present is now.
Present is to deliver.
Present is a gift.

Now let's deliver the gift of our life to people we adore and God that we love. Nothing else worth more than that.

If you ask me, what's my present?
I would say, "A gift that is delivered at this moment.NOW."
So, what is it?
I think it would be God's presence in our present life of present.

Trade in GU (16 Sep 2008)

2008-09-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

5th Trade in GU closed automatically because of the SL limit. It close at 1.7872, loss USD 0.031, -62 pips.
Open SHORT at GU@1.7767 for the 6th Trade, 5 lot, cost USD 0.05, SL @ 1.785.

Trade in GU (16 Sep 2008)

2008-09-16T13:05:00.003+08:00

Closed 4th Trade GU @ 1.7941, -309 pips , lost USD 0.0309.
Remember to put SL, watch indicator and fundamental news.
Remember to close all trade before Friday.
Remember to start trading only on Tuesday.

5th Trade LONG GU @1.7934 , lot of 5, cost USD 0.05
SL at 1.7872.
Indicators on Sidus shows up trends.

Trading Period

2008-09-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

I just realise that for a person like me, trading on the 1st day and the last day of the week makes me frustrated.
I think I can only tolerate small changes that comes little by little. For example, trading day for me, would be Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Those are the days where trend is stable. Closing all my trades position before and after theses 3 days would be better for me to control my emotion.

STOP-LOSS!! A must. I always forget about this when I make a trade. Setting my own profit and loss would be tough, cause I wanna earn more!!!

Another thing is that the timeframe I use, I still can't really figure it out, whether to use TF 1 hour or 4 hours. Cause sometimes, it depends on my mood again. If I'm eager to earn, definitely I want to make money fast, but it seems to hinder me making a right decision.

Candies for My Eye

2008-09-09T10:37:00.004+08:00

People would ask me, why am I looking at gals all the time?
Am I desperate?
Well, let me tell you something, it was a way for me to remind me that I have something else in my heart. It was a way to tell myself that no matter how good a gal is, there's always someone better. So don't make yourself frustrated with what you have. Enjoy it and appreciate it even though it was something you are frustrating with. God gave us eyes to see, to realise and to experience, so that life is filled with wonders and appreciation.

Laziness

2008-09-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

Proverbs 6:10-11

10 A little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to rest-
11 and poverty will come on you like a bandit
and scarcity like an armed man.

Passion in a life of Christ and love definitely won't make you a sleepy, slumber kind of person. This is to remind you that, God always hold on to his promises, to punish you for not following his Words.

Trade in GU & GJ(8 September 2008)

2008-09-08T19:49:00.001+08:00

This time, I want to try tf 1 hour.
3rd Trade SHORT GJ @ 191.55, 4th Trade SHORT GU @1.7632
Both 1 lot which cost USD 0.01

Bought this because signal for entry was on for the previous 2 candle stick bar.

Trade in GJ & GU (8 September 2008)

2008-09-08T16:34:00.000+08:00

Closing postion for 1st trade GJ @ 192.39 -201 pips, lost USD 0.1005 and 2nd trade GU @ 1.7686 -149 pips, lost USD 0.06705.

Reason & explanation of losing for closing trade is:
1. Fluctuation of candle sticks that is big.
2. I didn't read the fundamental analysis for GJ, which indirectly affected GU.
3. Didn't set S/L for both trades.
4. End of day should close all trades if the trade is not stable. or the fluctuation is too big.
5. Focus on one pairs.
6. Don't stare at the platform for too long.

Trade in GU (8 September 2008)

2008-09-08T10:06:00.000+08:00

2nd Trade @ 9.31am
long position, lot of 5 at 1.7887 .
Same reason to trade. Indicators show upwards trend.

Trade in GJ (8 September 2008)

2008-09-08T10:01:00.001+08:00

1st Trade @ 9.25am
long position, lot of 5 at 193.88.
All indicators show similar changes in trend. A late trade and hence traded when the stock market is open after awhile. Closed all trades before this to start a new trade for blog.

Indicator for Forex

2008-09-08T09:24:00.001+08:00

MACD
Fast EMA period : 12
Slow EMA period : 26
MACD SMA period : 9

Stochastic Slow
FastK period : 5
SlowK MA type : Simple
SlowK period : 3
SlowD MA type : Simple
SlowK period : 5

Capital : USD 0.50149

Parabolic SAR
Acceleration : 0.02
Maximum : 0.2

Sidus Method
Bollinger Bands : Simple, period 47, multiple 2.5
Moving Average : Exponential, period 18 and period 28
Moving Average : Weighted, period 5 and period 8

SLOPI

2008-09-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

You know what, I just realise, there's a lot more reason for me not to worry about her. But, my heart don't allow me to do so. I can't believe that deep down in my heart, she is always there. Emotionally attached is not that easy to break off especially when there's a lot of things that I owe her. I didn't know that expectation from me would hurt someone so deep. Deeper than cuts from a knife. A wound that couldn't heal fast. It may even kill her soul.

Memories that I promise.
Promises that I couldn't achieve.
Achievement that is not a success.
None of them done their job.

I'm worried, not myself but the one I love.
I wish her happy.
I pray hard for her.
I only wish, I was there to help her.
I believe that God have done incredible things.
It's so great that sometimes, I couldn't resist to ask help from God.

God, I pray that, You will help her through all the ups and downs in her life. Encourage her when she go through any suffering and temptation. Help her in her studies. Bring her up when she is down. Comfort her when she cries. Give her things that she needed. I only pray that she lives happily ever after.

Isaiah 55:11

2008-09-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

"so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
       It will not return to me empty,
       but will accomplish what I desire
       and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. "

Every word that we as a human said is accomplish with their own purpose rather than God's purpose. I know that human is never perfect, it was always God that make it perfect and allow us to enjoy his joy. His promises never comes empty, something that a human can't do. I like to talk but those are not promises that will return to me for what I desire. For God, every word that He said is infinite and works all the time. Just the timing that makes the difference and the way it is presence in front of our eyes.

Given me a chance to make promises, I dare not to try again.
Given me a chance to drop dead into something that I wanted to, I dare not to touch it.
Well, life ain't as smooth as what I see. The only way to go through it again is to draw strength from God himself where there's infinite strength that no one can provide.

I pray that God will give everyone around me an opportunity to experience His presence through me and people around me. It was our personal experience that makes a believer of Christ different from others. Others who have try so hard to achieve a portion in their life to be success. God bless.

51 Year of Independant

2008-08-31T17:59:00.001+08:00

Me and Dato went to Dataran Merdeka for Merdeka Celebration. This is some of the photos that we have taken. Crowded with a lot of photographer. Most of the pictures are uniform personnel cause I like uniforms :D.

Small kids parade for Merdeka Celebration.

Baby at Dataran Merdeka. Pity him.

RTM Host.

Student performing at the stage behind me.

Dato with his Helicoptor ahaha.

A guy from France that I met from the B.A.S.E Jumping at TM Tower.

4 years

2008-08-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

4 years is enough for me to see changes and improvement in myself. 4 years is more than enough to test what I can do and achieve. Enough say, tomorrow going for jogging. tata. Freaking enjoy running in the rain.

Faith Tester

2008-08-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

Our faith and relationship will only show their true colour when there's a temptation or problems going on. We won't really know the strength of our faith with God when there's no struggling and incongruence in our heart. This was something that really strike me during my jog in the rain at Bukit Gasing.

Through jogging that I realise, life is full of temptation, limitation and also weaknesses that I do not wish to see. A good example would be the discipline that I have to hold on to myself when I go jogging. I planned to go for a jog regularly since I came to UTAR. It didn't work out because my plans didn't hold on well to something that motivates me. Well, now I have something in my mind for me to hold on to when I go for jogging. It can be my struggling with some issues, it might be my problems that I face currently, it can also be some happy moment that I need to release out without anyone realizing it.

Again, God gave me this opportunity to apply the Word that He taught me. Through struggling in my life, I learn a lot of the Word from God. It was never that hard anyway, I just need to go on with my life and understand the meaning behind God's Word.

A regular jogging is like the best prevention for heart attack.
It is the same for God's Word in our heart, it is the best medicine and also prevention for anything that will happen in our LIFE.

My faith on God's relationship and me was always a struggle for me. Sometimes, I just wish that I will give up myself to the world around me. It would be a lot more easier than holding on to God's Word. Well, I pray that I will always remember God's Word better than I thought I am.

SLOPI a lot.

fuck

2008-08-23T00:25:00.001+08:00

shit
that's it. a few days of silence mode.
i was just a burden, am i?
who do i talk to?
what can i do?
nothing much, just a few days of silence and staring at my own darkness. Hopefully, that one day, it can be lighted by Christ.

Define The Relationship (DTR)

2008-08-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

We had our bible study discussion in Keng Yin's house with Crystal from New York, Lance from the friendly neighbourhood, Jacod the deep thinker and Mong Ping.The topic we had is DTR.

There's 2 important relationship in our life. One relationship is the relationship with the people in the world and another one would be the relationship with God. Both are important relationship that both plays a different role in our life.

Relationship with God is definitely something that none of us should forget because it is the greatest relationship that you would want to have. A perfect relationship where there's perfect love which cast away fear. The fear of losing, the fear of unknown, the fear of rejection and also the fear of death. All this came from God himself when we are in relationship with Him. God give us without anything in return and there's no expectation, that's really something precious to hold on to.

Another relationship is human relationship, it can be boy gal relationship, or family and friends relationships or any relationship in this world. For me, relationship that I'm really looking for now would be a boy gal relationship.

A moment in DTR, erm...
It was like a dream when I look back at the night I talk about relationship with someone that I know. Someone that only exist in my dreams. It happen during, before and after a movie.

We talk about life and death. We talk about things that happen in the past and future. We talk about everything.
I wrote the 3 special word on the palm of her during that movie night, hoping that she will understand the emotions and feelings that I put upon my heart. She was excited but also confuse. I was excited and happy. Well, I forget the details but I know I can't really sleep that night.
A few days later, I confront with her again about defining the relationship. She was not ready for a new relationship and she don't wish to use me as a replacement for her ex.
At the end, things work out well for both of us. We had some great time together. Working together, eating together, watching together, hang out together and also laughing at something that we both think is cute and funny.

God plays an important role in this relationship of mine with her. It was a duty for me to become better and learn more about God through her. Partly from her personality and also her background. God send an angel to let me realize His importance and His existance. It is the same as an angel who came to tell us about the news of a saviour and also an angel who bless us with their faith. God has His own way to get things done. My motivation was always externally affected. Whether or not it is something important, I always change according to the environment.

Well, she was something different, something that I wish God told me earlier so that I can enjoy it now. God I pray that she will learn her way of living in your presence and I pray that You will guide her in her spirit to search for you.

Start to feel sleepy and tired because of cellfood. Night.

Prozac Nation

2008-08-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

A must to people who had depression before.

Life

2008-08-15T13:06:00.000+08:00

Family, Money, Relationships, Academic, Work, Beliefs, and so many more in my life. Should I do something with them?

Tears

2008-08-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

Have you tried dropping tears that is going side ways? Try crying on a bike or while sleeping and you will know it.
Tears that goes sideways are tears that you will never wanted it to drop. Haiz...

Untitled

2008-08-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

Frustrated? Sure.
Meaningless? Sure.
Conclusion again? definitely no.

Untitled

2008-08-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

Hurt? Sure.
Bored? Sure.
A conclusion? No.

Graduation in MMU 2008

2008-08-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

Memories is always the best when you look back at it. Looking at the things that happen within this year. It makes me wonder, did I make mistakes that I can learn? I would say yes, and there's a lot of them. Mistake that would make me grow within and without. Relationships that I never thought I would have, life that makes me appreciate and times that I wasted upon.

God spare us with things that we never wanted but always needed. I think it is time for me to really think about issues that I'm really facing. Since the days in MMU, I have learn to express myself in blog. A blog that I never thought it would be my diary that makes me who I am. Issues that I already had it even before I join MMU. A lot of things happen during my duty as a student and a believer of Christ. Would that be enough and prepared me to accept the reason behind my life and purpose?

I'm still pondering on this question of life. Would it be everlasting or just a temporary issues? Well definitely a good point for me to start my life with.

I wonder, how does it feel to miss someone?

Kian Meng, an excellent student.

My kaki lepak in MMU, Brian and Teo.

Wes from Kentucky

2008-08-10T20:45:00.001+08:00

Wes from Kentucky visited us who is in Malaysia. This is what happen during his visit and we enjoy being with him.

We celebrated Andrew's Birthday.

We had a SMALL chat before we go to sleep.

We had our English class together and we played MAFIA. I'm totally a psychotic MAFIA.

We hang out in some of the famous places among the student.

We had our Batman: Dark Knight in TGV. A freaking cool movie.

I forced him to finish the ugliest food you can find in Malaysia.

He told us about the slumps in Philippines.

He was a person like me, maybe slightly better. A person with clear goals but lack of motivation and discipline. High flexibility and adaptation skills.A person that God will definitely bless and uses. My prayers to him is that he learn about God in the stricter way and being able to excel better than me. Hopefully that the next time I met him, he will grow in the way of a excellent Christian in God's eyes. Amen.

Malaysia International Fireworks Competition 2008

2008-08-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.mifc.com.my/mifc08/info.html

The best fireworks can be seen in Malaysia. Check out the previous year competition in Putrajaya in my blogspot.

MIFC 2007

A Busy Relationship

2008-08-06T01:15:00.001+08:00

Imagine, you're in a relationship where one of the partner is busy and another is a lepak kaki, do you think this kind of relationship will work out?
Imagine again, if your partner is too busy to response to you, what would you feel?
Imagine another scenario, if breaking up because of your busy life, will you regret?

People tends to think that since there's no more commitment in each other, there's no more relationship in it.Everyone is busy with their own stuff. There's no time for commitment. But would you think in that way too?

The victim of a bully tends to become the bully in another relationship.
Will the cycle comes back again when the victim is the bully?

I believe that human are gifted with a creative and imaginary mind that can help us to imagine and understand the problems faced by bullies and victims. If this is the case, I believe that the cycle will stop in it's own way. Will the bully understand and appreciate experience that a the victim faced? Will the victim prevent themselves from being a bully? I don't know, but I believe that there's always hope in it.

Our faith is tested with things that we are going through in life. A faith that have not been tested will not much of an impact in our life. Even if we are tested, God will always be there to lead us to a way, a way that our faith can grow stronger. A busy life definitely will not take away our faith towards God, but the ignorance definitely will affect our faith.

I always thanks God for giving me a second chance in everything I have prayed for. I prayed and I received, it might be in something that I didn't expect, it might be a way of life that I need to change, but I definitely receive it. Thank you la. Next time I thank you more. :D

Actually, I'm pondering on some question that I faced and think about recently. Would it be wise to make a conclusion that based on the things I had observed? Would it be fair to people I care? Should there be something better in mind that I should mingle with? Would this be a test for my faith? I do not know, but I'm sure I need to hold on to the things that I believe.

Phrase from Tom.
Tom said this to P, "Try imagine the things that Tom is going through with the experience that P had before. There's definitely something that is making P frustrated about..."

SLOPI a lot.

Job Vacancy

2008-08-04T18:32:00.001+08:00

Promoters : FEMALE & MALE ROAD SHOW PROMOTERS WANTED!!!-RM 12 per hour min by Griss

Mobile 012 555 9778 / 03 2288 1416
Location Around Klang Valley & Petaling Jaya
Onsite No
Start Date 2008/08/25
Duration 7 days min
Salary RM 12 per hour min
Working Hours 5/6 hours per day. Giving away product samples & freebies.
Needed Skills Prefer presentable looking & good personality.

Trust

2008-08-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

No matter how much love exists in your relationship, it cannot survive without trust.

Facts of an Acidic Body

2008-08-03T12:23:00.006+08:00

關心自己也要關心別人，85﹪癌症病患屬於酸性體質。
＊健康人的血液是成弱鹼性的，約是pH7.35～7.45左右
＊嬰兒也是屬於弱鹼性的體質
＊成長期的成人有體質酸化的現象

根據一項六百位癌症病人體液分佈的研究，顯示85﹪癌症病患屬於酸性體質。
因此，如何使體質維持在弱鹼性就是遠離疾病的第一步。

酸性體質的生理表徵
1.皮膚無光澤。
2.香港腳。
3.稍做運動即感疲勞，一上公車便想睡覺。
4.上下樓梯容易氣喘。
5.肥胖、下腹突出。
6.步伐緩慢、動作遲緩。

為什麼會形成酸性體質？

1.過度攝取乳酸性食品
a）肉類、乳酪製品與蛋、牛肉、火腿等皆屬於酸性食品。
b）攝取過量的酸性食品血液會傾向酸性而變黏稠，不易流到細血管的末稍，而易造成手腳或膝蓋的冷寒症，以及肩膀僵硬和失眠等。
c）年輕力壯時吃適量的肉類是對的，但老年人則以蔬菜或小魚為宜。

2.生活步調失常會造成酸性體質
a）生活步調失常會造成精神與肉體的壓力。
b）據統計，晚睡者罹患癌症的機率比正常人高出五倍。
c）人類本來就活在節奏的世界裡，無法事先儲備睡眠或飲食，也不能日夜顛倒。
d）人體內臟受自律神經控制，白天主要是交感神經活動，晚上則由副交感神經工作，若使其錯亂及倒置，就亦百病滋生。

3.情緒過於緊張
a）文明社會會造成的壓力。
b）工作上或精神上的壓力。
c）當一個人承受精神壓力後，一旦緊張鬆弛，時會造成猝死，稱為潛在性副腎皮質機能不全症。

4.肉體的緊張
a）動手術之前應先檢查腎上腺皮質機能是否正常。如果副腎皮質機能較差，或手術壓力遠超過副腎調整功能，則可能造成病人死亡或其他不良影響
b）若發現病患臉部浮腫，需詳加詢問病史及服藥狀況，為長期服用腎上腺皮質賀爾蒙者，施以針灸要特別注意反應。
c）勞動或運動過度，通宵打牌、開車等壓力都應盡量避免。

附錄：常見食物的酸鹼性
1強酸性食品：蛋黃、乳酪、白糖做的西點或柿子、烏魚子、柴魚等。
2.中酸性食品：火腿、培根、雞肉、鮪魚、豬肉、鰻魚、牛肉、麵包、小麥、奶油、馬肉等。
3.弱酸性食品：白米、落花生、啤酒、酒、油炸豆腐、海苔、文蛤、章魚、泥鰍。
4.弱鹼性食品：紅豆、蘿蔔、蘋果、甘藍菜、洋蔥、豆腐等。
5.中鹼性食品：蘿蔔乾、大豆、紅蘿蔔、蕃茄、香蕉、橘子、南瓜、草莓、蛋白、梅乾、檸檬、菠菜等。
6. 強鹼性食品：葡萄、茶葉、葡萄酒、海帶芽、海帶等。尤其是天然綠藻富含葉綠素，是不錯的鹼性健康食品，而茶類不宜過量，最佳飲用時間為早上。

One should take care of oneself but should also be caring about others, 85% of cancer patients have acidic in their physical condition.

Blood of healthy persons is weakly alkaline in nature, with a pH of about 7.35 to 7.45
Babies' blood is also weakly acidic
As adults mature their blood becomes more acidic in nature

According to a study of 600 cancer patients, of their bodily fluid, 85% of the patients are acidic .
Therefore, how to maintain the weakly acidic nature of our body is the first step for moving far away from diseases.

Acidic physical conditions manifest itself in:
1. Skin without luster
2. Athlete's foot
3. Feeling tire even with very little exercise, and feeling sleep the moment one gets on to public buses
4. Easily out of breath going up and down stair
5. Fat and with lower stomach protruding
6. Move slowly and movement lethargic

Why does the body physical condition turn acidic?

1. Excessive intake of dairy acidic food
a) meat, dairy products, eggs, beef, ham, etc are acidic food
b) taking too much acidic food will cause the blood to become acidic and viscous, difficult to flow to the end of blood vessels, leading to cold feet or knee, stiff shoulders and insomnia.
c) When one is young and strong, taking suitable quantity of meat is appropriate, but older people it more suitable to have a diet which are primarily vegetables or small fish.

2. Irregularity in the pace of life will cause the body physical condition to become acidic
a) Irregular pace in life will lead to mental and physical stress
b) According to statistics, people who sleep late are more likely to have cancer than normal persons, by as much as 5 times.
c) Human beings originally lead a life with regular tempo in this world, it is not possible to store up sleep or food and not possible to change the order of living by mixing up days and nights.
d) Human organs are controlled by the autonomic nerves, and during day time it is mainly sympathetic nerves activities, and at night it is mainly the parasympathetic nerves which are functioning, If this order is disturbed and reversed, then diseases will result.

3. Emotion over tensed
a) Civilised society brings stresses
b) Job related or mental stresses
c) A person suffers mental stress, when the stress is removed and the person relaxes, sometimes this may lead to death, referred to as the syndrome of imperfect adrenal cortex function.
c) A person suffers mental stress, when the stress is removed and the person relaxes, sometimes this may lead to death, referred to as the syndrome of imperfect adrenal cortex function.

4. Physical Stress
a) Before any operation it would be necessary to check to see if the renal cortex does function normally. If the adrenal cortex is lacking, or if the stress imposed by the operation exceeded the ability of adrenal cortex to cope, it could lead to death or other undesirable impacts.
b) If it noted that patient's face is puffy, it would be necessary to inquire in detail the patient's medical history and medication status, for patients taking adrenal cortical hormone, extra care should be exercise when administering acupuncture.
c) Stress due to physical labour or exercise in excess, whole night card games, driving etc should be avoided as much as possible

Appendix: Acidity/alkalinity of Common food stuff

1. Strongly acidic food: egg yolk, cheese, cake make with white sugar or persimmon, mullet fish roe, dried cod.

2. Mildly acidic food: ham, bacon, chicken meat, squid, pork, eel, beef, bread, wheat, butter, horse meat etc

3. Weakly acidic food: white rice, peanut, beer, alcohol, oil fried tofu, sea weed, clam, octopus, catfish

4. Weakly alkaline food: red bean, radish, apple, cabbage, onion, tofu etc.

5. Mildly alkaline food: dried radish, soya bean, carrot, tomato, banana, orange, pumpkin strawberry, egg white, dried plum, lemon, spinach, etc.

6. Strongly alkaline food: grape, tea leave, grape wine, kelp sprout, kelp, etc. Especially natural green algae which contain rich quantity of chlorophyll are very good alkaline health food, but tea should not be drunk in excess, and best to drink in the morning.

I realize that my body is getting weaker and weaker physically and mentally. Even though I'm aware of it, nothing much can be done. Being aware and having some action done is a total different thing for me. It was my personality and also my weakness. I realize that there's a need but I can't do it by myself. Ask me why? I dunno.

Something is missing in my life that I need to find out.

Hebrews 11:1

2008-07-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

“ Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” (Hebrews 11:1)

A verse that I really have to experience the meaning behind it.

Ecclesiastes

2008-07-25T21:52:00.002+08:00

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

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The Conclusion of the Matter

9 Not only was the Teacher wise, but also he imparted knowledge to the people. He pondered and searched out and set in order many proverbs. 10 The Teacher searched to find just the right words, and what he wrote was upright and true.

11 The words of the wise are like goads, their collected sayings like firmly embedded nails—given by one Shepherd. 12 Be warned, my son, of anything in addition to them.
Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body.

13 Now all has been heard;
here is the conclusion of the matter:
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.

14 For God will bring every deed into judgment,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.

I have been asking myself, the meaning of life. Ecclesiastes makes me ponder on a lot of the things that the wise teacher said. Everything is meaningless, but when God is in the picture of meaningless, everything is something with meaning. I tried to capture and understand everything in my life, found out that everything is meaningless. Imagining and understanding the past, present and the future doesn't really give me much answers.

Love is meaningless, life is meaningless, but what is not meaningless?
I know that God is not meaningless cause He is something.
But to really find some meaning in Him, is totally hard for me. When will that day come into my life?

Burnout

2008-07-25T13:46:00.004+08:00

Now I do understand the meaning of burnout when I sit silently in front of the TV. You can only stare at the TV without thinking or looking or listening. All you can do is to stare and be blank. It was the toughest experience from work. It wasn't the stress, not the procedures, not even the people, but the burnout that took away my soul. Tiredness is another thing, burnout is totally exhausting. I couldn't even think properly with my head and mind. Where should I go? What should I do? Why am I not thinking? When will I be start moving my ass and do stuff? Totally empty.

Ha! I should rest and replenish with my studies in His words. He shall give me strength to replenish my burnings.

ILU

Absence of Soul

2008-07-21T19:34:00.003+08:00

What does it feel when u miss someone?
My friend has been missing for almost 2 weeks. So what happen to this friend of mine? I don't know haha. Well, imagine you had an accident and a part of your body is gone, what will you feel? Definitely a phantom effect that you still think that this part of your body is still around.

My colleague took 1 week leave, and it really makes me feel that sometimes, people around you doesn't have to be dead to feel this effect. It will just happen anywhere, any time as long as you are used to that person being around of you.

DNA Phantom Effects

While searching for the definition of phantom effects, I stumble upon another incredible theory on DNA Phantom Effects. A theory that draws my attention. Photons are insert into a controlled vacuum environment and they move in a random distribution. The incredible thing is that when DNA is put into this environment, the photons move in a wave length aligned to the DNA's wave length. When the DNA is taken out, the photons still move in the similar wave length as the DNA. This actually means that a copy of the DNA is remain in the photons through some data stored within the wave length. It just means that DNA can actually restructure the data or particles in the scope of quantum physic point of view. Indirect, it just affects everything in our life.

Particles such as photons perform in wave phenomena. If you look at a bigger scale other than quantum scale, you will see that, wave form kind of particles such as sound, works similar like photons. Imagine DNA affects sound, brain wave, your visual, and almost anything in the world, this definitely something that is related to the beginning of words.

From my psychology point of view, our mindset is a kind of DNA. It will alter anything thing that it touch. So, our spiritual mindset is also affecting all of our body. God's word is a pattern that will alter everything in His way.

Well, I miss my friend. :D

Ipoh with Vieng

2008-07-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

God have given me a few oppourtunity and chance to re-do something that I have done wrong. Will God take back what He have given me? Well I think He will, since He is the almighty one. I just hope that things will go well when everything is not what I thought it is.

We went to Ipoh with Vieng, a navigator from California.

Vieng in RED.

He wanted to visit the fighting fish(Betta splendens),FF in Ipoh. According to him, Ipoh is well known for his FF breeding. The FF is export to the States because of their tough scales fish compare to other country's FF.

So, he got some breeder's name from his FF buddy and we are on our way to IPOH.

Actually there's something attracting our attention. hehe. Look at Dato's tummy, it looks like it's growing bigger.

KY talking to her client, distraction that makes Malaysian late for their meetings.

Well, when we said that we are on our way, we are really ON the way, or we haven't started the trip yet in Malaysian context. According to an OBSERVATION done by Vieng, Malaysian have a good habit of not fixing their time schedule in the correct day and time. When we say 5pm, it might be an hour later, or 12 hours later. It depends on who you're looking at :D.

Before we head for the farms for FF, we stop by a place in Ipoh to meet KY's (not KY gel) family in some stall that is famous for their Ipoh Yong Tau Foo under a BIG tree.

They really have nice and cheap food in Ipoh. We had a conclusion of why Ipoh food is nicer compare to KL. According to Dato, it is because of the water. Their water is better in terms of minerals (hard water). Hence, not only the food is nice, the "lui" from Ipoh also nice hahaha.

*Winks*

After filling our stomach with nice food and nice VIEWs, we are now ready to head for the fightings, the legend and the birth place of FF!!! The place we are heading to is Guntong, a small village famous for FF. If I'm not wrong, the place we are heading, is the only place that is famous for FF. They actually have a website of their own.

The FISH pond.

When we reach there, I wasn't excited at all because I'm not that into FF. But when I listen to Vieng and the breeder talks about the FF (since I'm the translator, I'm forced to understand), I start to like FF. Well, the interesting part of a FF would the gambling. Since I'm a lousy but entertaining gambler, that do attract my attention :P.

The baby Fishes.

The Water that looks like URINE!!! So be careful when you buy your fish, they might be swimming in someone's recycled URINE. Save the water, Save the World!!!

We had some chit chat with the workers, some photo making, some door hitting on the forehead of a kid, and we are back to some FOOOODDD.

The Famous Tauge Chicken

Souvenir for our House.

I was left alone in Ipoh with my bag and something special. Now, it's time for my one day backpacking in a foreign town that I never come to stay at before. Ipoh looks like the small town of Kuantan, a place that I grew up in and had a lot of memories. I enjoyed a lot of the slow moving pace of Ipoh. I also enjoyed the old grandma in Ipoh and her preety granddaughter. The cheap and nice food and also the rain that remind me of my childhood in Kuantan.

It smells like Kuantan and it sounds like one too. The bird chirping makes me feel like I'm in Kuantan. The fresh breeze in the morning and in the bus, remind me of the primary and secondary school memories that I had in the school buses. The gal that I'm trying to be friend with and friends I make in the buses.

I think a lot when I'm alone, I think through almost everything that I'm going through in my recent new born life. The relationships I have, the people I know and the life that God gave me.
Thanks God for everything.

ILU.

Can't Smile Without You - Barry Manilow

2008-07-06T20:18:00.004+08:00

Title: Barry Manilow - Cant Smile Without You lyrics

Artist: Barry Manilow Lyrics

Video: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x79lw_barry-manilow-cant-smile-without-yo_music

CHORUS:
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song and brightened my day.
Who would've believed that you were part of dream?
Now it all seems light years away and now you know...

CHORUS 2:
I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile...

BRIDGE:
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find.
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me and you see...

CHORUS 3:
I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

An Act that moves the Country

2008-06-30T10:49:00.005+08:00

As you have know, someone lodged a report against Anwar on the week after some serious issues in the mongolia gal case is being reported. Would the day of national riot coming on our way or it is just a ripple of a wave waiting for another bigger events or movement for Malaysia to change?

Some blog reporting this cases.
http://www.jeffooi.com/ , http://www.jeffooi.com/2008/06/the_pain_of_sodomy_3.php
http://rockybru.blogspot.com/2008/06/coffee-boy-engaged-and-in-blue.html

UTAR Kampar

2008-06-30T10:05:00.003+08:00

I was sent to Kampar to work for UTAR in soft skills competency unit. What would student say about the new built UTAR campus in kampar if you ask the student in PJ campus?

Some would say that it is "ulu" ( kampungish ).

Some would say that it is a waste of money moving from a city to a small town of no where.

Some would say, wtf, I paid my RM500 for development fees and I get nothing from it.

Some would say that it is a place without entertainment and night life.

Well what would I say about UTAR Kampar?

A nice place with mountains and lake, good feng shui I would say :D.

A place to study without disturbance.

A place to practice your cycling skills.

A place to move slowly in pace and learn to enjoy nature.

A beautiful place indeed and it is near to Ipoh and Penang.

It feels like the experience that I had during my studies in MMU, Cyberjaya.

If you're finding a beautiful place to study, I would recommend you Kampar. Big and nice.

Just look at the pictures taken by some of the people.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kampar,_Perak

http://unclechoy.blogs.friendster.com/photos/utar_kampar/index.html

Well, will UTAR be your choice? It might be :D.

10 Ways to Instantly Build Self Confidence

2008-06-27T15:34:00.003+08:00

from PickTheBrain - 10 ways to Instantly Build Self Confidence

Self confidence is the difference between feeling unstoppable and feeling scared out of your wits. Your perception of yourself has an enormous impact on how others perceive you. Perception is reality — the more self confidence you have, the more likely it is you’ll succeed.
Although many of the factors affecting self confidence are beyond your control, there are a number of things you can consciously do to build self confidence. By using these 10 strategies you can get the mental edge you need to reach your potential.

Build Self Confidence

1. Dress Sharp
Although clothes don’t make the man, they certainly affect the way he feels about himself. No one is more conscious of your physical appearance than you are. When you don’t look good, it changes the way you carry yourself and interact with other people. Use this to your advantage by taking care of your personal appearance. In most cases, significant improvements can be made by bathing and shaving frequently, wearing clean clothes, and being cognizant of the latest styles.
This doesn’t mean you need to spend a lot on clothes. One great rule to follow is “spend twice as much, buy half as much”. Rather than buying a bunch of cheap clothes, buy half as many select, high quality items. In long run this decreases spending because expensive clothes wear out less easily and stay in style longer than cheap clothes. Buying less also helps reduce the clutter in your closet.

2. Walk Faster
One of the easiest ways to tell how a person feels about herself is to examine her walk. Is it slow? tired? painful? Or is it energetic and purposeful? People with confidence walk quickly. They have places to go, people to see, and important work to do. Even if you aren’t in a hurry, you can increase your self confidence by putting some pep in your step. Walking 25% faster will make to you look and feel more important.

3. Good Posture
Similarly, the way a person carries herself tells a story. People with slumped shoulders and lethargic movements display a lack of self confidence. They aren’t enthusiastic about what they’re doing and they don’t consider themselves important. By practicing good posture, you’ll automatically feel more confident. Stand up straight, keep your head up, and make eye contact. You’ll make a positive impression on others and instantly feel more alert and empowered.

4. Personal Commercial
One of the best ways to build confidence is listening to a motivational speech. Unfortunately, opportunities to listen to a great speaker are few and far between. You can fill this need by creating a personal commercial. Write a 30-60 second speech that highlights your strengths and goals. Then recite it in front of the mirror aloud (or inside your head if you prefer) whenever you need a confidence boost.

5. Gratitude
When you focus too much on what you want, the mind creates reasons why you can’t have it. This leads you to dwell on your weaknesses. The best way to avoid this is consciously focusing on gratitude. Set aside time each day to mentally list everything you have to be grateful for. Recall your past successes, unique skills, loving relationships, and positive momentum. You’ll be amazed how much you have going for you and motivated to take that next step towards success.

6. Compliment other people
When we think negatively about ourselves, we often project that feeling on to others in the form of insults and gossip. To break this cycle of negativity, get in the habit of praising other people. Refuse to engage in backstabbing gossip and make an effort to compliment those around you. In the process, you’ll become well liked and build self confidence. By looking for the best in others, you indirectly bring out the best in yourself.

7. Sit in the front rowIn schools, offices, and public assemblies around the world, people constantly strive to sit at the back of the room. Most people prefer the back because they’re afraid of being noticed. This reflects a lack of self confidence. By deciding to sit in the front row, you can get over this irrational fear and build your self confidence. You’ll also be more visible to the important people talking from the front of the room.

8. Speak up
During group discussions many people never speak up because they’re afraid that people will judge them for saying something stupid. This fear isn’t really justified. Generally, people are much more accepting than we imagine. In fact most people are dealing with the exact same fears. By making an effort to speak up at least once in every group discussion, you’ll become a better public speaker, more confident in your own thoughts, and recognized as a leader by your peers.

9. Work out
Along the same lines as personal appearance, physical fitness has a huge effect on self confidence. If you’re out of shape, you’ll feel insecure, unattractive, and less energetic. By working out, you improve your physcial appearance, energize yourself, and accomplish something positive. Having the discipline to work out not only makes you feel better, it creates positive momentum that you can build on the rest of the day.

10. Focus on contribution
Too often we get caught up in our own desires. We focus too much on ourselves and not enough on the needs of other people. If you stop thinking about yourself and concentrate on the contribution you’re making to the rest of the world, you won’t worry as much about you own flaws. This will increase self confidence and allow you to contribute with maximum efficiency. The more you contribute to the world the more you’ll be rewarded with personal success and recognition.

Expenses of student in Petaling Jaya

2008-06-26T14:17:00.007+08:00

My dad send me an email with a title of "Can a family man with Salary RM3,000 survive in Malaysia?"

MALAYSIA BOLEH KE TAK BOLEH ??

Can a family man with Salary RM3,000 survive in Malaysia Let's do some simple calculations here.
In Malaysia , the average family income is RM3,000 /month (where father works, mother doesn't).
I understand there are many families whose monthly income does not reach RM3,000, but, to make things simple, let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok lah, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....

Calculation starts...

Electricity and water bill: RM100 (No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)
Phone bill ( Telekom): RM100
Meals for a happy family: RM775 (3 meals on RM25/day, RM25 for 4 persons...?)
Papa makan / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155 (RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)
Car repayment: RM400 (A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)
Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam): RM300 (go to work, bring son to school, only can afford one car running)
Insurance: RM650 (kids, wife and myself)
House repayment: RM750 (low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs, retired still have to work to pay!)
Tuition: RM80 (got that cheap meh? i don't think so)
Older children pocket money @ school: RM20 (RM1/day, eat bread?)
School fees: RM30 (enough ah?)
School books and etc: RM100 (always got extra to pay in school)
Younger children milk powder: RM50 (cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive) Miscellaneous: RM100 ( sham poo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so...
No Astro, no movie @ cinema, no DVD, no CD, no online, cannot KFC, cannot McDonald, cannot go Park walk during weekend (petrol expensive), no chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...
Let's use a calculator to total up...
WALAO EH! Shit! RM3,610 already...
EPF belum potong, income tax lagi.........
oledi RM3,610 ....
How to survive lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian ???
Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle?
How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?
Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!!
What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh...
Sorry ... it should be Malaysians Boleh , because we're still alive and kicking!!
Our politicians must be mad!!!! Please forward and comment boleh or tak boleh. No wonder so many Ah Loong around lah....

THIS IS BEFORE FUEL HIKES.
haahh well, now it is time to show off the expenses from a student like me staying in PJ every month.
Cheapest known food around PJ is RM3.00 for lunch and dinner.
Food = RM3.00x2x30 + RM1.00 (breakfast) x 30= RM210

Rental + Electric and Water Bill(including Housefund) + Internet(sharing)
RM200+RM40+RM10 = span >RM250

Transportation(Motorbike, every week RM5 from school to house) = RM 20

Mobile Phone expenses(average) = RM50

Entertainment (movies, yamcha, lepak, gaming...) = RM30

This have not include with Birthday parties, books, daily accessories and some others miscellaneous.

NO extra clothes, NO bus ticket back home, NO gal friend and NO maintenance.
Well, looking at the expenses I have, I can actually cut down on a few things la. Phone RM30 for monthly usage, walk to school, cook by myself( but sometimes it is even more expensive than eating outside, my housemate said), don't go for entertainment and no extra curriculum. Oh ya, no gal friend. Being single definitely will save a lot of money hahahahahaha.

Connection

2008-06-19T19:24:00.003+08:00

A word that I'm keen of , connect and connections.

It always relates something to something, a circle of something or even sexual intercourse?
It was tough to make a connection that you never had before. Building a connection with someone else is not as easy as connecting a bridge from one end to another end.

Both ends need to agree that there is a connection, otherwise the bridge will fall. But for a physical bridge, all it needs is just calculations and physics. A bridge that is invisible, last longer but it's hard to maintain. How do we build it? How do we maintain it? How do we pass this knowledge and wisdom to others? All of this is something that we, as a person, should seek for.

A fake connections creates fake ends.
A bridge will collapse when there is a poor material.

So how do we build it? with what?
There's a few things that I realise. We need to be sincere at the beginning until the end, be honest and truthful with our thoughts. This is the basic requirement to make connections. Even if the other end do not think that you're sincere, that attitude of us will definitely change their thoughts sooner or later.

There's no ABC steps to really make connections. There's only a simple guidelines to follow: what's the purpose behind making connections? Asking this question will actually guide us in our attempts of connecting the both ends.

So, do we need to maintain a connection? Again, it depends on the purpose behind making a connection. If there is a higher purpose, we should do it. The method that we use to maintain it could be in any ways. An example would be through communication.

Can we pass this connection to other people? Well, I think we can't really do that. Connection is built with time and sincere effort. It is the basic and only requirement of connecting. hehe.

Internship

2008-06-12T15:59:00.004+08:00

Day 9
Wake up quite early today for the first time, was punctual. 2-Kelvin, 1-Habit.
In the previous few days of internship, I was sent to Sg Long and Setapak to work. Well, every time when I was send to a place to work, I gain new experience that I never expect I should.

In Sg Long, I totally salute to my collegue for her way of controlling the crowd. Totally in control. I should learn from her more often. I also met my old friends whom I haven't meet for like freaking 6-8 years. I was so happy that day that I almost get high. haha.

Speak well in English doesn't mean that you can perform well in public. The confidence and the bravery needed to speak in public(strangers) is actually more than what I expected. Things might even go chaos when you're not prepare mentally.

In Setapak, I realise that my uncompleted engineering background actully helps me to educate people about soft skills. I didn't wasted my dad's money in engineering! Good! Hope he have cold down after he sees my result.

Never did I expected to work in UTAR, and never did I expected that there's people that I admire in Softskills Unit.

Having a family and some background that he is not kinda proud of, he is indeed a person with a lot of experiences. You can learn a lot of things from him, from politics to anything that you can relate. He jokes when you never notice. So beware of him when he is around, he might make you dizzy :D.

Being in a place where's chinese is the main population, she is definitely someone I look up to. A friendly person that I hope to be friend with.

I can speak personally with a few people but not in the crowd. It was my weakness. I was never prepared when I'm in big crowd. But if it is just a small group of people, I would be able to take control of the situation. This is also what I am good at. Mood itself, will also affect my performance, whether in presentation or attitude. This, I think I need to learn to be consistence with my lifestyle and Take Charge.

Working in here doesn't seem to be same as working in Celcom. It is a different environment and atmosphere. Working here has been an experience even if it was only been 9 days.

Suprisingly, soft skills unit was visited by a lot of student. I do hope UTAR gonna make this unit as independent as possible. As a University that focus on soft skills, improvement on management will definitely help her to grow.

Conscience guide us in making right decisions and let us aware of our sins, but JC allow us to correct the sin that we have done and be congruence with our conscience.

Oh ya, petrol price increase doesn't help the nation to aware of the traffic jam in KL. Totally ignorance.

Internship

2008-06-04T15:24:00.003+08:00

Day 2
Punctual today. 1-Kelvin 1-Habit. Well, today was totally out of expectation when they said they gonna bring me to Setapak campus to promote their programme in FES, Faculty of Engineering and Science. This trip allows me to explore not only the student of FES but also the officer of SSCU that bring me along.

Both officer are graduates from TAR, one from KTAR another from UTAR. KTAR graduate gave me the feeling that she is still searching for a right job. On the other side, UTAR graduate gave me the euthasiam of being an officer in SSCU. A person who likes her work.

From observing both person's working attitude, I found out that both is at a different level of maturity within themselves. Although I won't say that I'm mature enough to talk about it, I just couldn't not notice the differences.

At the end of day, I was sent to finish my power point slides in ICT lab.

Trying my best to adapt to my migraine during these 2 days. I was having a heavy migraine that makes me couldn't sleep well at all. It continues to be like this for 2 days.

Met a few guys from Setapak campus, nice guy indeed.

I think I gonna cut my hair. If not, I will look like barbarians from jungle. I had to cut my Janggut for this job. Damn. haha.

A Road Map to FES, UTAR Setapak Campus:

Internship

2008-06-04T14:39:00.003+08:00

Day 1
First day of work, I was late. 0-Kelvin 1-Habit. I didn't check the working hours for my office. That was totally screw up. Besides that, my alarm and clock is set an hour late. Damn... Well, mistake noted and points taken.

I met a guy who is working together as an interns as me. Well, he didn't make it the second day. To me, he just need to put down his ego as what simon said, and everything can be done easily without any challenge. Just put down all the thoughts that he have in his mind, he might be someone who is excellent. Still, I had some nice chat with him.

Another thing is, I was told to finish a power point so that I can present in front all of the student and I need to finish it in ONE night? That was tough. Luckily, I already been through an intensive training with Keng Yin as her part-time power point editor aka robot. So I manage to slip through the challenge that the supervisor gave me. What a RELIEF!!!

Oh ya, my company profile:
copied from the SSCU handbook.

Soft Skills Competency Unit (SSCU)

1. Background
With its holistic vision, the University looks beyond developing the students academically to providing them with competitive skills required in the employment market. Steps are taken to enhance students' skills that are relevant for the transition from the classroom to the working world.

Today, employers expect in the potential employees, a combination of intellectual competence and soft skills for example, communication and interpersonal skills, public speaking, self confidence and the right attitude for the job. Thus, graduates must prepare themselves to "hit the ground running".

2. Establishment of Soft Skills Competency Unit (SSCU)
In view of the above background, the University set up a Soft Skills Competency Unit in October 2005 with the following objectives:

Identify soft skills that are relevant to the workplace.
Work with training providers to develop programmes.
Promote and market the soft skills programmes among UTAR students.
Conduct evaluation on the effectiveness of the programmes and provide feedback to the University.

3. Soft Skills Competency Programmes
The programmes offered focus on the five (5) Main Key Skills as stated below:

Communication skills - this is the one critical skill mentioned most often by employers and is about the ability to listen, write and speak effectively.
Thinking skills - to stretch students' creative potential and Thinking abilities for them to function effectively in the workplace.
Teambuilding and Leadership skills - the need to work with others from different disciplines as a cohesive team.
Emotional intelligence – a person's ability to deal with his or her own emotions and of others in a constructive manner that will promote teamwork and productivity is becoming an important skill in the workplace.
Entrepreneurial & Innovative Skills - this skill is not only for graduates who want to be self employed. Graduates as employees should be entrepreneur-like in performing their jobs and seeking new business opportunities for their employers.

4. Duration of the programme
The duration of the above programmes can range from a few hours to a few weeks. These programmes are not exhaustive and more will be added from time to time with feedback from the employers and graduates.

5. Mode of Learning:
The focus will be on experiential learning where participants are encouraged to acquire the competency skills by participating in activities and drawing in their own experience. Trainers are from the corporate world with working knowledge and skills.

UTAR students are well aware of the importance of soft skills. The unit known as the Soft Skills Competency Unit (SSCU) was set up in October 2005. It started with only one programme – the Intensive Immersion Programme - to enable students to acquire important work-related skills such as Communication skills, Leadership and Team-building skills, Emotional Intelligence, Thinking Skills and Entrepreneurial & Innovative skills. UTAR hopes that graduates equipped with these skills will be able to meet the challenges of the business environment. The skills are designed to help students make the transition from the classroom to the working world.

There are about 100 programmes offering training in soft skills to UTAR students.

That's all for the first day of work.

Big Mac

2008-05-30T11:53:00.003+08:00

Never thought i can chant for that freaking chant for 4 big mac burgers. Worth it la. Since I have no money to eat, better take this as a blessing for my stomach.

Two all beef patties
special sauce lettuce
cheese pickles onions
on a sesame seed bun!

oh ya, and 4 free big mac. :D

Exam

2008-05-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

Some photos that I have taken during our mid term test for Counselling.

Before Exam.

Revising like mad for last minute revision. The gal with a happy face is the 4 flat scorer, so she is not worried at all.

2 Leng Zai with spec trying to discuss some serious issue in Counselling subject.

Well, the discussion continues with the other specky leng zai.

Behaviour in Exam.

The V or Peace sign poser. (Top: Vince, Bottom: Cheng)

Wow, he can even post the international sign language while rushing for this tense exam.

Sms is a route to success when you do not know anything about the question. ( PS. He is not cheating, it's after the exam).

Let me see, they have "GOOD" eyes.Woww Double vision. :D

I'm just curious, can he read the exam questions with this lengthy hair?

Har! Don't try to cheat, I can see you.

The last resort when you really can't think of an answer - Dream and hopefully that Uncle Chow, the boogey man, will provide you the answer.

Some nice angle shots from my table.

Relationship

2008-05-27T01:47:00.003+08:00

Relationship is a very big word to me.
Relationship contains every aspect of a human life.
It can be destroyed, it can be built.
It is hard to maintain but there is nice rewards after a fight.
Relationship with mortals, with God, with creatures and with non living things.
Sleepy, just wanted to be philosophical before I sleep :P

Untitled

2008-05-27T01:25:00.003+08:00

Dramatically, the only solid principle in my life is that my mood change all the time.
There's always a time where my little moody thoughts come and fill my brain with depressing feelings that I always wanted to escape from. But today, I was filled with something else, a spring of joy that I hope it will last longer than I expected.

Day dreaming, dreaming, fantasies, imagination and hopes are the only thing that can save me from my thoughts I'm facing now. Still, I need to do something about it. I couldn't let myself to be taken control over by my own desires. Desires to be a person that I do not hope to be.

Would it be a new beginning for me? Yes. I think so. :D

Nightmares

2008-05-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

Nightmares, whether it's a dream or reality, it seems to be incongruence with the things I believe. It wasn't a nightmares that is unpredictable, but nightmares that you always expect it to happen. It was something that you have to struggle with all the time.
It isn't the things that you always pray for, but things that you will normally pray of.

Are nightmares worries of our daily life, or it's just a shadow of God's prophecies?

KFC Sentul

2008-05-10T15:29:00.002+08:00

Have you been to a KFC that don't have noise within the building?

Well I've been to one. You chat with them using body language that you couldn't interpret at all. It is the best KFC that I've been to. You don't need to talk too much and create noise which disturb other customer. All you need to do is "speak" silently.

Best in the Town.

Industrial Training

2008-05-05T14:37:00.000+08:00

Soft Skills & Competency Unit in UTAR

Is it a good thing or a bad one?

Untitled

2008-05-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Blogging from Sentul.

Today was the worst day I had in my exam. It was the first time I feel like crying in the exam hall. It wasn't tough but it was something else. It was a feeling that makes my heart ache. The feeling of not able to answer when the answer is just within your reach. The feeling of not able to perform at my peak. It was different from what I experience in MMU, it was something new, something that I never thought I will experience. It wasn't me, it was my other side. The side or I might say, God, that was interfering.

Another feeling that I had a few days ago is also bothering me. It was a nightmare that I struggle to overcome, a nightmare that took away my dreams and motivation. This nightmare started since I was small. Just pray hard that someone will take it away from me. A nightmare that I strangled myself within it's awaken life.

眼尾跳

2008-04-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

I had this rapid vibrating eyelids this few weeks. Information stated in the net says that, one of the reason could be stress. Well, hopes that it's gonna be gone in a few weeks time.

Extraordinary People

2008-04-28T20:44:00.003+08:00

We as a christian always tell others about what is a christian and why we are a christian. How about others opinion about what a true christian would be?

A letter to differentiate christians from other people by a prosecuter during the ancient times.

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Extraordinary People
From an anonymous “Letter to Diognetus,” possibly dating fom the 2nd cent
[Ref. “A Lion Handbook – The History of Christianity”, page 69.]

“For Christians are not differentiated from other people by country, language or
customs; you see, they do not live in cities of their own, or speak some strange
dialect, or have some peculiar lifestyle.

This teaching of theirs has not been contrived by the invention and speculation of
inquisitive men; nor are they propagating mere human teaching as some people
do.

They live in both Greek and foreign cities, wherever chance has put them.

They follow local customs in clothing, food and other aspects of life. But at the same
time, they demonstrate to us the wonderful and certainly unusual form of their own
citizenship.

They live in their own native lands, but as aliens; as citizens, they share all things with
others; but as aliens, suffer all things.

Every foreign country is to them as their native country, and every native land as a
foreign country.

They marry and have children just like every one else; but they do not kill unwanted
babies.

They offer a shared table, but not a shared bed.

They are at present ‘in the flesh’ but they do not live ‘according to the flesh’.

They are passing their days on earth, but are citizens of heaven.

They obey the appointed laws, and go beyond the laws in their own lives.

They love everyone, but are persecuted by all.

They are unknown and condemned; they are put to death and gain life.

They are poor and yet make many rich.

They are short of everything and yet have plenty of all things.

They are dishonoured and yet gain glory through dishonour.

Their names are blackened and yet they are cleared.

They are mocked and bless in return.

They are treated outrageously and behave respectfully to others.

When they do good, they are punished as evildoers; when punished, they rejoice
as if being given new life.

They are attacked by Jews as aliens, and are persecuted by the Greeks; yet those
who hate them cannot give any reason for their hostility.

To put it simply-the soul is to the body as Christians are to the world.

The soul is spread through all parts of the body and Christians through all the cities of
the world.

The soul is in the body but is not of the body; Christians are in the world but not of
the world.”

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It describes perfectly a life that a christian should live as. A life that any of us won't regret upon. It's not about the what we are or who we are but how we live in life. Christ suffered for us and prepare a road that will lead us to a peaceful state of mind and life. The only problem is whether we wanted to do so? Teng Yang used this as a check list every year to check whether he fulfilled any of this criteria written in this letter. It was tough to do all of this even for a christian , what else for a person that never heard of christ?

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MJ testimonial on trusting gave us a good view on trusting God in our life. One of the point that he mention is that he choose to not live a lifestyle that he is affordable to do so. It's hard to do so because people always for the luxurious and a better life. Choosing not to live a so called "better life" is difficult when there's no trust and faith in God's promise. It is also a way to trust God that, He will provide everything that we need when we follow his way.

Snake Rat One Nest

2008-04-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

The reason I name this post Snake Rat One Nest is because the chinese words behind this photo describe perfectly the animals that is exhibited.

The white parrot that is attracted to me.

she even flap her wing for me hoho.

The so called million dollar face Ivy(mention in her blog) *puke*

Exotic Creature Exhibition in One Utama was an experience for me. Well, it was the first time in my life that I know creatures have names like Banana, Peach and Tangerin. Most of the animals in the exhibition are mainly snakes. I saw one snake that look like someone's bag and a frog that look like a stone. A colourful parrot that don't speak but shout and another white parrot that likes my touch (never know that I attract animal more than females) . I had fun looking at all those so called exotic animals with ivy. At least, I had something to do during my study week. Hehe.

Read more on Ivy's blog.

UTAR New President

2008-04-23T16:12:00.002+08:00

UTAR New President that I think I will really wanted him to teach me Engineering when I'm in MMU. He was a well known lecturer that everyone was fond of. He is good in teaching the student in the class. I never thought he would come to UTAR. I only heard good things about him when he is in MMU. Well, MMU never appreciate his contribution towards the University, then UTAR will do so. Hope that UTAR gonna grow better because of him. He have vision and mission for Malaysia. All the best.

A little bit background of him.
Information from UTAR.

Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR) is pleased to announce the appointment of Professor Engr. Dato' Dr. Chuah Hean Teik as the next President/CEO of the University to succeed Tan Sri Datuk Dr. Ng Lay Swee effective 1 April 2008.

The establishment of UTAR in 2002 saw the appointment of Tan Sri Datuk Dr. Ng as the first President/CEO of the University. With an initial intake of 411 students studying in one of the eight Bachelor degree programmes, the University has grown tremendously under her stewardship till this day. UTAR currently has over 16,000 students and offers nearly 60 programmes, from Foundation courses to Bachelor and Postgraduate degrees.

Prof. Chuah brings with him over 20 years of vast technical expertise and academic experience to the University. Previously a Senior Professor from the Multimedia University, he held various posts and was Vice-President of Research and Development and Academic Development, the Dean of Engineering and the Director of Research at MMU. He was also the Penang State Government Professor of ICT at MMU from June 2001 to Jan 2008.

Prof. Chuah is a well known expert in applied electromagnetics and microwave remote sensing. He has authored and co-authored more than 220 papers in international journals and conferences. He has received many awards, both locally and internationally. Among them are the Professor Chin Fung Kee Gold Medal for Engineering Management, the inaugural Young Engineer Award by the Institution of Engineers Malaysia, the Young Scientist Awards at the 23rd and 24th General Assemblies of the International Union of Radio Science (URSI), the Young Scientist Award (Industrial Sector) by the Malaysian Ministry of Science, Technology and the Environment, the Malaysian Toray Science Foundation Science and Technology Award for his contributions in the area of microwave remote sensing, and the Sterling Award from the Sterling Group of Universities for his services in the promotion of the engineering profession.

Prof. Chuah is a Chartered Engineer registered with the UK Engineering Council and is currently the Deputy President/President Elect of the Institution of Engineers Malaysia. Prof. Chuah is also a Council Member and Fellow of the Academy of Sciences Malaysia. He is a Fellow of the Remote Sensing & Photogrammetry Society, UK; the Institution of Engineering and Technology, UK; the Electromagnetics Academy, USA; Hon. Fellow of the ASEAN Federation of Engineering Organisations, a Founding Fellow of the ASEAN Academy of Engineering and Technology, a Senior Member of the Institute of Electrical and Electronics Engineering, USA; and Honorary Member of the Golden Key International Honour Society.

Prof. Chuah graduated with a Bachelor of Engineering degree with First Class Honours, Master's in Engineering Science and a PhD in Electrical Engineering, from University of Malaya.

In recognition of his valuable services, the Governor of the State of Penang Malaysia conferred upon him an Order of Chivalry, Darjah Setia Pangkuan Negeri, which carries the title 'Dato' in July 2005.

Education is a long-term endeavour that must progress with changing times and new technologies. As always, UTAR not only maintains its position on the importance of providing ample educational opportunities to the nation's youth, but also strives to ensure a wholesome educational system for the development of well-rounded human resource that is capable and competitive.

With the impact from globalisation becoming more significant, the country's future competitiveness will be built upon its research and development capabilities. UTAR will continue to strengthen and expand the number of Master's and Doctoral programmes to raise overall competitiveness, educational quality and nurture talents of the country.

UTAR is confident that Prof. Chuah will provide strong leadership to UTAR as it soars to still greater heights, both internationally and to meet the national agenda and objectives of revitalising education for the nation.

Technorati

2008-04-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

Technorati Profile

Joined a small community of bloggers.

Touch 'n Go

2008-04-14T12:21:00.003+08:00

From The Star : You can use Touch ’n Go card to buy burgers by next Saturday by Wong Sai Wan.

KUALA LUMPUR: The next time you go to a fast-food stall for your burger or doughnut, don’t worry if you have forgotten your money as all you need is your Touch ’n Go card.

By next Saturday, you can buy such items from 21 outlets in the Klang Valley under a pilot scheme for the Touch ‘n Go card which is currently a toll, public transport and parking paying device.

The outlets are from A&W, Burger King, Dunkin’ Donut, 7-Eleven, Carrefour hypermarkets, Caltex convenience stores and Cineleisure.

Motorist Noordalila Paris using her Touch ’n Go card to purchase doughnuts at a Dunkin Donut outlet at a petrol kiosk in Jalan Damansara Friday. From next Saturday, the cards can be used to pay for fast food at 21 outlets in the Klang Valley. - Uu Ban / The Star

According to Touch ’n Go chief operating officer Hasni Zarina Mohamed Khan, this project would be the start of the card being used for retail purchase. Describing it as a natural progression, she pointed out that the card was an electronic purse and supports Bank Negara’s move for a cashless society.

“We have issued 4.5 million cards to date of which 50% are active (used at least once a month).

“At present, the cards are used mainly for toll payment but we hope that by next year, 5% to 10% of the cardholders will use it for retail,” she said in an interview.

She said even for the Octopus card – the transit electronic purse in Hong Kong that is one of the most successful in the world – only 20% of the holders use it for retail purchase.

Touch ‘n Go hopes to increase the number of retail outlets by 20 a month. There could be even more than 150 such outlets throughout the country by year’s end.

She explained that her company had to supply the card readers and backend solutions for the outlets and this took time.

“Consumers need not worry about hidden cost because all the chain stores have an agreement that there will be no extra charges for those using Touch ’n Go cards compared to those using cash. If the item is RM1 then it will still be RM1 if you use our card,” Hasni Zarina added.

Hasni Zarina said cardholders could top up the value of their cards to RM1,000 and need not worry if the cards were lost or stolen.

“All they have to do is to inform us immediately and we can block the card. We can then issue a new card with the remaining value,” she said.

The card could also be a good way of controlling children's spending as this could be their one card from taking public transport to buying their lunch or snacks.

From me.

I notice one issue that comes around with this card.

If the card is stolen, is there any secured protection to protect the virtual money in this card? It is convenient to use it because we just need to credit the money into the card and swap or tap it at the machine to get the stuff we need. We don't know to bring cash or coins to pay.

If there's no protection, it is the same as using real cash. The danger is still there. You get robbed, and your money is all gone. You thought of putting RM1000 to buy shoes or clothes or just food. In the end, you lost all the money because of the robbery.

Fantasy

2008-04-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

Damn, fantasy again... fantasy fantasy, dreams that never be realised.
I'm so afraid of dreaming that I almost had nightmares all the time.

Justin and Kristen

2008-04-10T12:23:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm here to promote their blog to my navigators friend.

http://amilewithus.wordpress.com/

Kelvin Seow - A Piece of My World

Changes of Me @ Ling Lee

Life Changed

James 1:15

An Illustration of James 1:15

Nightmare

Unity

Listens and Won.

In All Circumstances

我愛豆腐 I Love To-Fu

葉子 - 懷念 阿桑 R.I.P.(The Rose 薔薇之戀電視片尾曲)

伊能静 靜靜的海洋 - 志雲飯局 <當初相識回憶如花>

Keeping the Sabbath

Celebrating The Feasts

Tithing Vs. Paying Debts

No Backseat Driving

Hot Hot Hot

Unusual Experience

Do Not Worry

Working

Gambling

Is Gambling A Sin?

The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus

Untitled

Steve Jobs' Life Story

My Daylight Robbery in 61 (Petaling Jaya)

Job's Story

Random

Happy Valentine

Home

Changes

Confusing

Canon Rock played by Guitar

Wealth

Brick Walls

Untitled

Untitled

Lousy

Fragile

嘉恋-彩虹二辑(卡通+天后)

Awareness Test

Rain Drops

Suffering, Perseverance, Character and Hope

Present

Trade in GU (16 Sep 2008)

Trade in GU (16 Sep 2008)

Trading Period

Candies for My Eye

Laziness

Trade in GU & GJ(8 September 2008)

Trade in GJ & GU (8 September 2008)

Trade in GU (8 September 2008)

Trade in GJ (8 September 2008)

Indicator for Forex

SLOPI

Isaiah 55:11

51 Year of Independant

4 years

Faith Tester

fuck

Define The Relationship (DTR)

Prozac Nation

Life

Tears

Untitled

Untitled

Graduation in MMU 2008

Wes from Kentucky

Malaysia International Fireworks Competition 2008

A Busy Relationship

Job Vacancy

Promoters : FEMALE & MALE ROAD SHOW PROMOTERS WANTED!!!-RM 12 per hour min by Griss

Trust

Facts of an Acidic Body

Hebrews 11:1

Ecclesiastes

A Time for Everything

The Conclusion of the Matter

Burnout

Absence of Soul

葉子 - 懷念阿桑 R.I.P.(The Rose 薔薇之戀電視片尾曲)

伊能静靜靜的海洋 - 志雲飯局 <當初相識回憶如花>