Thursday, February 01, 2007
Life is kinda like a game of baseball.
You make the choice to become the hitter.
You have control on how strong you gonna swing.
You gonna make the decision on when to hit.
And boooommmm, you swing, you hit and you miss the target.
I miss a lot of things in my life.
My childhood, friendship, love, God, parent, my studies, my time with my siblings.....
All this have make what I am.
I have missed part of my life that God gave me to something that is really vain.
That part of life is something that I don't really like , and this feeling of vain is coming again.
I have been through this process a lot of times, HJ even said that, life is gonna keep on with that pattern if I don't make the move.
Now, I have a life which, God is in it, Insurance is helping me, Forex for me to train my discipline,My house mate to help me in growing, Psychology to let me know more about my behaviour, but still all of this is not gonna really help me if I don't make the move.
The choice is always there given by God, God have tested me a few times, and I failed terrible.
Misery, depression, anxiety, pressure and emptiness hit me one by one. Maybe this is the punishment by God himself. Even though this kind of punishment seems to be nothing to some people.
Lord, can I replace my prayers with this post, not able to pray all the time with all my heart, always focus on things that is not pleasant in your eyes. All of this have been a sin, a sin that come from my heart. The bible mention about being a servant to God, have I tried to be a servant of God? Practice what I believe in?
It seems to me that, I know the facts and theory, but I seldom practice it. Am I a hypocrite like what Jesus told us in the bible?
Assurance of Victory 1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation have seized you except what is common to man.
And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.
But when you are tempted, he will provide you a way out so that you can stand up under it
1 Corinthians 10:13.
Lord, the assurance that you gave me, is a reminder to know that life is gonna be something different with you in it. I have faced a few problems that I never thought it will be that tough.
But from the bible study, I know that putting faith on you is very important. Admit my sins, and receive what I should.
One day, I will be able to hit the target and be ready for the next target, to achieve what I believe in.
In Jesus name that all of us is saved. A reminder of salvation.