Thursday, March 17, 2011

Changes of Me @ Ling Lee

Up until today, my heart was filled with fear of the changes to come. What kind of person do I want to be? What means the most to me? How do I want my life to be? How will I be truly happy? I went for a walk yesterday, and I was at peace. The sky was so blue, the wind so gentle~ My mind was empty, my heart was calm. I’ve made my decision, my dreams are clear, and from this moment on, I’m chasing them.

To my family,
Ah Lung, you’re my only brother, my life will be with a lot less smiles and laughter without you. Mii, I can’t count all the arguments and disagreements we have had, but I know you only mean well for me. Pa, I know you’ve always tried to protect me from the world and mistakes. All you’ve done means much to me,’s time to let me walk through life, fall, and make my own mistakes. Knowing all of you will be there for me when I get up again is more than enough.

To my friends who care for me, and I for them,
I remember the experiences I shared with each of you, and they will forever be a part of me. Some of you have gone away, for different reasons. Near or far, I hope we can continue to count on each other. Everyone’s going through different things right now, but I’ll always be there to help if anyone needs me. Please wait patiently for my 1st OR 2nd pay, I’ll belanja you guys one by one :)

To the one I love,
You know me best, because I share my heart with you. The moments with you...are always my happiest. You’ve done as much as you can for me, your love helps me grow stronger. With you...I can be myself, I can be weak, I can show you my true heart and soul. Every word you’ve said to me, I listened and tried to understand.
Forgive me for all the things I’ve said and done that hurt you, forgive me for pushing you away. You deserve my trust & my faith. Doubting you, means I doubt myself. To make things better, I know I have to become more mature, positive, independent. I have to be myself & grow into the person I want to be.

To me,
Keep things simple~
Be brave and don’t be scared of changes, you can make them changes for the better~
Change, but always stay true to yourself~
Treat everyone you love as well as you can~
When you’re emotional, stop, take a deep breath, and keep calm~
Make your decisions for the right reasons, and after considering all the choices and consequences of those choices~
Be positive~
Love like you’ve never been hurt before~
Don’t settle for a safe life because you’re scared of trying & failing, Reach for your Dreams~
Experience everything that life has to offer~
Learn from your failures but, try everything FRESH like you’ve never failed before~
Most of all, don’t hold yourself back~
Live your life with no regrets, cause you only have one life~

Monday, September 13, 2010

Life Changed

I was wondering in the cyber cafe looking for something to read or watch, and I realise that my blog have not been update for almost a year....

A lot of things have changed since a year ago. I drop out from Uni, I started to work, I experience a whole new world by myself. I met people, I like someone, I done things I never done before and I almost killed myself with depression again.

Now, my life is fill with a lot of things that I don't even know whether I should embrace it. I just put my faith in God and just take any opportunity that God will give me in my life. Grab it as soon as I see it. Listen closely to His Voice, and practice and walk with the Word.

Still, sometimes, I think I'm avoiding God in a way. Not attending bible study, not reading the bible, not growing in faith and not preparing myself for Him in the heaven. A year have past, Kai Xin is back from Industrial Training. A lot of friends have been starting to pursue their dreams. People growing up and changed.

Still, sometimes, I still wonder on the past and things that have happen. What do I have now? I have enough money to survive, to pay my debts, to grab my dreams nearer to myself and learn about the model of a business. Financially able to support myself and others.

Still, sometimes, I think there's something missing in my life. God still there? Yes he is. He is always looking at me when I'm down and need some help. He is always giving me courage when I need to show my weakness to others. He is always there when I'm alone, reminding me about things that I shouldn't be doing and comforting me about my loneliness and depressive thoughts.

In the end, I realise that this one year that I have gone through, I'm glad to say that, I have receive a lot more than I deserve to get from God. He gave me a job, a place to stay, a group of friends that never give up on me, someone, and confidence that I have never had before. The confidence to stay alive, the joy to learn and the passion to teach and grow.

Even though late in the night, I still sense that the darkness is drawing me closer to them. The darkness that once took me away, and the darkness which brought the light to me. I'm still strong with God in me, though sometimes doubtful about it. Thank God for everything and every detail that you painted in my life. Thank you for lending me your son to me. I think I might need to find a way to return it back to you. Amen.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

James 1:15

An Illustration of James 1:15

Q. Could you please give me an illustration for this verse, James 1:15 
NIV : Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.
15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.  

Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.
I mean how do you explain this verse. I find it not easy though it seems easy.

A. James was talking about taking responsibility for our sins. He said we can’t accuse God of tempting us because He is neither tempted by evil nor does He tempt anyone else. 
(James 1:13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: evil: or, evils )

In verse 14 he said we are enticed to sin because of our own evil desires, which cause lustful thoughts.  When these thoughts are given consideration they become sin, which under the Law is punishable by death.

(James 1:15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death. )

To illustrate, say I’m walking down the street when I see a beautiful woman coming toward me. This woman is not my wife but I find her desirable to look at just the same.  If I entertain even a momentary thought on what it might be like to become sexually involved with her, I’ve committed the sin of adultery which is punishable by death.

Can I blame God for making the woman so attractive, or for causing her to cross my path, or for making me a healthy man with human desires?   No.  I can only blame myself for entertaining such a thought about a woman I’m not married to.

This is one of the illustrations Jesus used in Matt. 5-6 to show us the need for a Savior, because it’s impossible for us always avoid doing thing like this.  And the same is true of an angry thought, or an envious one, or an untruthful one.

James was making the point that we can’t blame God when we succumb to the temptations of this world. From other passages we know that Jesus died for all our sins so we won’t have to. (Col. 2:13-15)  And even after we’re saved, when we take responsibility for our sins and confess them as such, God is just and faithful to forgive us and will purify us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9) so we won’t become estranged from Him.

9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Source GraceThroughFaith

Thursday, August 13, 2009


  It has been a long time before I have a nightmare. This time, it is really frightening because it was real and related to something that I'm facing. It was about me and my parents. The nightmare freaks me out because this fear of mine have been a drawback for my confident and life in doing decisions. I only realise that it was so important and threatening to my thoughts that I would fear it happen again.
  Fear of being rejected and not recognised by my parents. Fear of being the useless member of the family. Fear of everything from my parents. Dropping expectation of my community and my family. Those are stopping me from breaking down my barriers that is stopping me from open up myself to others and God. The real issues is not on the fear but me myself putting down my pride and barrier. I wouldn't say that the problems lies at my parents but rather, the problems lies on my confession of my sin and surrender and submit myself to God.
  So what is the issue with surrendering myself to God. Denying myself and carrying our cross daily and follow Christ. IT is an issue for my christian living and also my growth in Christ. All this nightmare happen for a reason and I believe it has a purpose in my growth and maturity as a christian.
  What's wrong with this surrendering and submitting myself to God gonna do with my nightmare?
  Does it have to do with my decision that I gonna make for my studies and my addiction & idol & idleness?
  I do think that I have the asnwer. The answer to my surrendering and submission to God. Obedience that I need to follow to GROW in Christ. I really pray that God and me will work out something and I not merely listen to it but follow it.

Putting Christ First
Matthew 6:33
Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Courtesy of nakedpastor 

What have I dropped???

Thursday, May 21, 2009


“May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.”
(Romans 15:5-6)

One heart and mouth is sometimes a struggle for me myself.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Listens and Won.

"If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over.” (Matthew 18:15)

Understanding and listening, makes a difference.

Friday, May 08, 2009

In All Circumstances

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

Give thanks in all circumstances is a tough decision. Not many people could do that. It was a challenge to a lot of people, and also to me. Looking at God's will for us in Christ, everything seems to be easy to go through, even if it is a tough circumstances. Thanks.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

伊能静 靜靜的海洋 - 志雲飯局 <當初相識回憶如花>

以下是志雲飯局的 访谈:






























Part2:父母离异 幼年曾三地奔波





































































Part5:与哈林一见钟情 婚前14年未同居






































Part6:发誓离婚与第三者无关 诉说离婚的真实原因


















































Courtesy from 伊能静 靜靜的海洋

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Keeping the Sabbath

Keeping the Sabbath

Courtesy of GraceThruFaith

Celebrating The Feasts

Q. I was at a Bible study recently and the leader of the group is a Messianic Jew and he was talking about the feasts of Israel. He was saying that the early church for the first 300 years celebrated the feasts. I have been around a few Messianic Jews and know that they do continue to celebrate the feasts. My question is – when Paul penned the Galation Epistle and talked about the keeping of the Mosaic Law vs. Faith in Christ – was he also including the feasts? I strongly feel from scripture that there really should not be any distinction between Jew and Gentile because Ephesians and other Epistles make it very clear we are one in Christ and should be in Christ. While I certainly believe Hebraic teaching and understanding the old testament is certainly vital to our walk with God – are we going back under the law in observing the feasts of Israel as Christians? I do not have the material to research to see if what he is saying is true for the early church celebrating the feasts other than scripture and I see no evidence in scripture that they kept any observance other than the Lord’s supper. Could you expound please?

A. I don’t know where your Bible study leader got his information from, but the New Testament clearly made the observance of the Feasts of Israel optional for the Church long before 300 AD. Their primary value for us lies in their historical and prophetic significance. Both can be greatly enhanced by observing the feasts, but we’re under no obligation to do so.

In Romans 14:5 Paul wrote:

One man considers one day more sacred than another; another man considers every day alike. Each one should be fully convinced in his own mind.

And in Colossians 2:16-17 he said:

Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day. These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ.

In saying these things he made all religious celebrations optional, subject to our individual convictions.

Courtesy from GraceThruFaith

Tithing Vs. Paying Debts

Q. I appreciate your insight and thank you for your ministry. If you have the time to help with this question, I would appreciate it.

I am trying to balance tithing vs. paying off debt. My question to you is, do I not tithe at all, and focus all the allowable funds towards debt? Do I split the debt payments and tithing? Or do I tithe 10% and what’s left over pay towards debt?

In addition to money, I give my time to the church teaching two Sunday school classes and buying each of my students a teenage study bible each year. By the way, I rely on your website as a good source of information for my students.

A. This is a much more complex question than it appears to be because it goes to philosophy and motive, not just action.

First, the philosophy. One purpose of tithing is to teach us that God has an abundance of money and is a generous giver to those who give generously to His work. (Luke 6:38) He wants us to have an abundance mentality, which means we believe there’s no limit to His ability to see to our needs. Remember, He said, “I have come so that they can have life and have it abundantly.” (John 10:10)

Your question reveals that like most people, you have a scarcity mentality. That means you believe there’s only a certain amount of money available to you and you have to find a way to make it go around. This is the opposite of an abundance mentality, and it stems from the belief that you and you alone are responsible for the money you get.

Next comes the motive. Tithing is an expression of our gratitude for what God has already given us. It’s not something we do in the hope of making our future better. If you are sincerely thankful for what the Lord has given you, regardless of your current circumstances, then tithing is your way of saying thanks. Seeing that you’re grateful for what He’s already given you, the Lord will bless you with more.

But withholding our tithe, or giving with an expectation of future blessing, reveals that our true motivation is greed, and short circuits the process.

This is all summed up in Proverbs 11:24-25.

One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty.

A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.

If you’re grateful for what you’ve already received, then give generously to the Lord’s work without expectation of future gain. This will release Him to be generous with you in return.

Courtesy from GraceThruFaith

No Backseat Driving

Courtesy of nakedpastor.

A very interesting cartoon which I always wanted to put JC as the driver of my car. It's so difficult sometimes that putting Him in control of my car. We can't even feel too safe when our we let our friends drive our car, how could we let Him do that? Well, that will happen when I didn't know who is Him. Understanding Him in the past allows me to really know well who should I trust. :D

Hot Hot Hot

The hot weather in my place is really killing a lot of people who is sick and having exams. This hot weather force me to think about global warming and the effects of human civilization done to the earth. Again, it also reminds me about why God wanted to separate people to reach to Him in Babylon. All because of the selfish pride of human trying to move towards the world of evil desires to become Him.

Even though I might be seem as an extremist in disguise, but this speaks my heart out. Ain't we here to protect God's garden of eden and the creature that lives in this earth? Ain't we people that would be sent back to heaven which I think earth itself is a shadow of heaven?

Oh well, all my concern now is about my great grandma, my friends and people whom I think is in need of help. But how about the Earth that God created?

This climate changes doesn't only affects the Earth in terms of temperature but also in other areas such as starvation, war, economic crisis, psychology illness and etc. I started to realise that Global Warming is not only affecting the temperature on the newspaper today. The war is crying out loud now in almost everywhere. Piracy (Pirates), Rebellions and also political changes that is taking over the newspaper seems to be getting more and more. Starvation and lack of food is also another issues that the world is facing now. More and more crimes is getting in our daily lifes. So what can us as a Christian do to help the world?

What will Jesus Christ do as a human in earth?
What's God purpose for human in this earth?
Does earth only meant to be exploited by us as much as we can and eventually death comes to our way?
Too many things is going on either we aware about it or not...
People are struggling on the issues they are facing now....
Will they look at the bigger picture of the issues?
Will they know what's the truth behind all this things that is going on?

I watch watchmen the graphical comic from Jacob. Depressing indeed but it's true. The life of human is getting wicked by days. Not because I saw it but because me myself is getting wicked days by days. God ask us to deny ourselves and carry the cross and our daily worries with Him. I'm sure that it includes our evil thoughts and behaviours.

Well, I have a few ideas.
1. Getting ourself equipped with God's word to prevent any spiritual changes that will affect our heart towards God.
2. Read the newspaper to update ourself with the problems that the world and our community is facing.
3. Take actions that will really benefit the issues and tackle it in anyways you can. For example, as a student, I might not have a lot of money but what I have is time, strength and countless passion that can be pour out to serve the God's creation well.
4. Pray and let God lead us in making any of the decisions that need a balance between 2 choices.
5. Tell others and share about this issue, and who knows, more people will have same faith as you. They might walk with you in this journey.
6. Know our capabilities in dealing with all this issues. If we are only capabilites of donating our money, just do it and pray to God so that He bless us with what we should do.

All this applies to every situation or issues that we are facing. All we need to do is to admit that we are weak, pray for forgiveness of incapibility and ask for help from God.

John 16:24
Assurance of Answered Prayer.

Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete. A strong word to start for a prayer.

God I also pray that churches are meant to be a place for us to grow but not to hinder us from you. I also pray that CS, L, A, C will be able to know the true purpose of having a church in our body, soul, spirit and mind. Amen.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Unusual Experience

I couldn't imagine that I would cry for my friend who is getting further and further from God. It was an unusual act of emotional expression. Erm, maybe it is just trying to tell God that I wish something better could happen. It might seems to be  the right choice to choose, but  we  know that  things will be different when God is not  put  first in our life.

The experience that me and others tell me that life is really meaningless without God. Even though you might be picking the right path that the world of desires prefer, but you yourself too knows that it is not completed in holiness and righteous. I always challenge myself by questioning whether God was put first before anything else? Or it is just my own desire or dreams that I put first before God?

Matthew 6:33

Do Not Worry
 25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I pray that God, You will provide wisdom and strength to C and L who is struggling to follow you. God I need you in their life. Being able to touch them deep in their heart. Protect them from temptation and the suffering from life itself. God provide them with the promises that you gave to people who believe in you. I also pray that I can more sensitive to people around me especially my friends in Christ which includes friends who is seeking for Christ. God I also pray that prayers itself is sufficient that it gives me peace but God I also pray that my Life would be filled with your Godly peace. Peace that lead me and people around me to You. Life itself take the course, with God guiding us. Amen

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Blogging from office since there's no work given to me yet.
I'm currently working Pengunnding Ukur Tekun (PUT) . I'm working as a technical drafter for a sub Project. My job is to use a software that can transform 2D pictures to 3D image. By doing this, I can actually accurately calculate the distance from a point to a point in the picture without measuring it. It's a field that is quite new in Malaysia, a technology we called Digital Photogrammetry.

The technology enable us to use only pictures to capture the 3D moment of a scene. It has been use in insurance claims for accident to calculate the damage of the car, car manufacturer to check for imperfection of car's body and also used in big stracture to estimate check for small cracks. Besides that, it can also be used as a device to copy a model using photos. For example, using only 3 pictures from different angle, I can make a 3D object of a branded model of car and reproduce the exactly same car in that software. Imagine the usefulness of this software.

So, I do hope others can implement this technology in their projects. It helps to reduce the risk and the cost of doing certain measurements. Anyway, I can't name the software and the project I'm doing, cause it's a P & C information of the company. Hola, back to work.

Monday, March 09, 2009


I went to Genting and had gambled. Temptation and excitement was there. But would it be an issue just to start tasting what is gambling?

Check this web and i realise, it might be an issue.

Is Gambling A Sin?

"Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.
1 Corinthians 6:12

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
2 Timothy 2:22

Avoid every kind of evil.
1 Thessalonians 5:22

So, is it an issue? You make the conclusion. :D

The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus

A cartoon i got from a website introduced by Kristen and Justin.
The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus