After hours of gaming and gaming, I just realised that I enjoy the pain of gaming. Not the excitement but the boringness and torture that I will receive.
Life seems to be easy and simple when I'm small. Life seems to be tougher when I begin my university life.
The feeling of emptiness and hopeless is striking me again. What can I do? What can I do?
Waiting around with my computer and my games or do something without a motive?
Living like a corpse or living like a saint?
None of it happens to be what I want. But what is the thing that I want or God wants?
Online, gaming, chatting, sleeping, suffer, pain and all this seems to be what I'm doing now.
Haih, I'm hopeless... useless and sometimes, stubborn to accept the fact.